简单的我 ..

荒废已久的部落格。。 不好意识， 是我冷落了您。。 让我很自然的想，或许这完全不是件坏事。。 因为只有心情超差时，我才会有那时间理会您。。 谢谢您总是不离不弃的期待着我。。 总是能完全的接受最自然的我。。


很多时候， 我总会好奇的想，其实，我想要些什么。。 我能要些什么。。 梦想总是遥远的。。 当夜深宁静时。。静得寂寞不停的提醒您它的存在时。。 或许您才能确认一切的一切。。并不是那么的重要。。

如果有那么一天， 你带着期待的心情迎接这天的到来，虽然你清楚的知道你是多么的累，但，你还是提起了精神开心的开了车启程。。就因不太清醒，下车了不久。。真的不确认车门上锁了没而又得返回查查看而被大声的轰骂。。 所有的目光几乎都落在您身上。。 这时又被“要求马上做决定” 。。 然后您察觉路人开始放慢脚步观察这一切。。而您鸦雀无声的。。根本不知道该如何反应过来。。 还得微笑的说“冷静点。。 就你决定吧”。。 然后，突然察觉对方很快的走了。。 周围的人在看您的反应。。 您会跟着对方走吗？如果这一切发生在您身上， 或许您会开始一场无法收拾的惨剧。。 然后对方将一切错都往您身上抛。。 他，掉头就走，就没有再回头或是一句慰问的话语。。 留下您。。 委屈的留下眼泪。。 清楚的知道现在的情绪不稳根本不适合开车。。但，还是一边流着眼泪，一边擦着泪水，一边在尽您所能不要战抖的开车。。

我还能说些什么。。 只有一句 ” 委屈您了“。。 我清楚的知道。。 您当时的微笑只是为了阻止泪水的滑落。。我也知道您的沉默只代表着倒数时间正式开始。。 只是，我的了解又能代表什么呢？

我知道，您要的其实并不复杂。。 如果当下，所有的态度能温和一些，这不会是场收拾不了的惨剧。。 您想要的其实是场没有压力，轻松的外出。。 您想要的其实真的很简单。。 您只想。。 不那么的孤单。。 最起码，能暂时忘了寂寞。。能感觉到另一个在左右。。 就算是1分钟都好。。 但，看来您是时候醒醒了，这是场非常遥远的梦想。。 或许， 如果。。

如果有如果。。。If and only if..

如果真的有如果。。 或许一切都能重写。。 或许“折磨”这字眼不会浮现脑海中吧。。 或许，就是少了“如果”这两字眼吧。。 我们都太习惯了先入为主。。真的有点累了。。 现在的我，有点累。。 背负的或许不只是单方面的重量。。 扛得真的有点累。。 希望的是。。 能有个能歇歇的港口。。 这面具能收起。。 可以无需刻意的因为必须”服侍“而面对笑容。。 可以无需因感觉不到安全感而感到不安。。 这一切的一切。。 未免太重了。。 我抗得。。有点苦。。 刹那间这避风港模糊得让我分不清了。。 有种连辩驳的力气都没了。。 原来累得连说话的力气都没。。辩驳的能力都没了的感觉是如此。。 如果有天， 我看会今天，我会明了这委屈感，此时此刻的感觉。。 但，我所道出的一切。。 你明了吗？如果你真的能明了。。 如果真的有如果。。

Where are you~~?!

This is a question directed to myself.. after a nervous breakdown.. I thought.. I will never experience this ever again.. but the truth is, I actually foresee that I will be expecting this again.. how long more will I go through all these? That is a question.. yet to be answered.. it depends on.. when I will realised.. where am I.. what a question right? Well, have you ever experienced this.. you know where you are.. physically.. but when you are way too devoted into something.. that, at that point of time, you are certain this will be giving future value.. way too devoted that, you lost yourself half way through.. without realising it..and one day, when you are awoken from that wonderful dream of yours.. you realised, you are in a place, where you can no longer see your own reflection.. are you alive? or.. and the 1st question that pops up.. "Where the hell am I?" ..

"Where are you".. this is one question I asked.. when I look into the mirror.. I guess it is the tears that have awoken me.. Yes.. I am not a practical person.. and yes.. I am a highly insecure gal.. this is because.. I have devoted a lot that I am not willing to let go? But, I am losing my grip..
I can't help it but wonder.. is it a sign of tiredness? I can't help it but wonder.. does anyone know what I have been through? How hard it is to come this far? Can you even imagine this? But who am I to judge right? I can never out spoke anyone.. Bare truth, I do not feel like saying a single shit.. because I don think words will worth much.. but I know well that it will certainly bring a lot of damage.. just like how much it had hurt me.. I say nothing does not mean I feel nothing.. some people will feel their power when others agree with what they thought is correct.. but, please do step back and reflect it.. because.. you will never know the truth.. if you continue to think it that way..

Well, the statement above.. you have been through too? Well, at some point of time.. I believe we will go through.. just a matter of time.. I have to say.. THANK YOU for those who are there when I am experiencing my nervous breakdown.. thank you for not forcing me .. and allow me to be myself.. I know I care for others more than I care for myself.. so much so that ... I thought I have lost my own feelings.. so much so that I have ignore my own needs.. and catering it for the happiness of others.. ya.. it is time to wake up.. and look for myself..

This is one song that I love so so much.. I prefer the cd version.. I will attached the lyrics here..


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歌名:比较爱
歌手:梁静茹

别说了 再说我就要哭了
总之我是一个人
默默走回家 又静静关了灯
是否该提醒你祝我生日更快乐

别点歌 别让伤心的情歌
惹得你睡不安稳
情人节的花 你送给了别人
到隔天清晨留言你爱我多诚恳

只要能笑一笑 抱着你 感到安慰
我真的 比较爱你一点
每当你看着我 一个谎 说得甜美
两个人 都忍不住伤悲

别点歌 别让伤心的情歌
惹得你睡不安稳
你生日那夜 你留给了别人
到隔天清晨留言你爱我多认真

只要能笑一笑 抱着你 感到安慰
我真的 比较爱你一点
每当你看着我 一个谎 说得抱歉
我知道 你比我更可怜

就算我笑一笑 得不到 你的安慰
我情愿 比较爱你一点
我不要背着你 说那些 坏的预言
恋人啊 都不准流泪

别说了 再说我就要哭了
总之我是一个人
默默走回家 又静静关了灯
电话那头你说 你是 爱我的

A word for you.. or maybe directed to myself?

What can I say? A lot of things have been happening around me.... I see people being happily together.. and breaking up.. some trying hard to stick together.. some..

Ya.. there is this say.. it is not hard to fall in love.. it is harder to find someone that love you back.. how true is this? that.. is subjective.. but one thing for sure.. no matter how much in love you are.. maybe when you are deeply in love.. you want to believe that, nothing will change.. but one day, when one expectation after another wee not met.. you will start to realise, the only thing that remain unchanged, is change itself.. as everything will change.. whether it is for the better or worst..

You disagree with my saying? Well, look around you.. currently studying? one day you will go into the working world.. and you, therefore, will change.. from the inside out.. or outside in.. you will change.. from the way you talk.. to the way you think.. One day, you will realised, the person that was so close to you.. seems to be so far apart.. ya.. i have a bunch of great fren.. most of them study different field.. and we started to drift further and further apart.. I still do "love" them deeply.. and I know well that if they need helps, i will try my best to help out.. but.. they have changed? or is it.I who started to change?

We cannot avoid change, therefore, we should go along with the change? This makes me wonder.. is there a duration or a definite distance that can make a long distance relationship work? I mean, from what I see, everything will eventually change right..will a long distance relationship eventually work out and somehow overcome all the changes or challenges that come by? Well,that is a question I do not think I am qualify to answer.. but one thing for sure, it is not an easy job to sustain it..

I believed we used to be puzzled with, what kinda ppl we will eventually ended up with.. when we were young.. we would hoping for the best.. one that does not really exist bec it is a "all in one package"... I used to be questioned with this too.. and I will end up saying practically nothing.. at this stage of life, I don aim for good looks , well, who am I to aim for model looking guy right? haha.. I believe one that I can trust, one that I will feel secured with.. that is the main priority.. If i cannot trust you.. how can I trust you with my feeling? How can I feel secured being beside you? I do not need fortune tellers telling me what will happen... I will create my own future.. Yes.. I am not certain what will happen along the road.. I mean, who will be certain of the future.. life itself is a risks.. but am I ready to take a road not taken? This I shall remain silence on.. however, I have come this far.. I intend to continue with the walk? Those that I have entrust with trust.. please do not let me down? I will need you to stand by me.. catch me when I fall.. dance with me when I am happy.. and sing along with me when I am stress out.. for, I will do the same for you too!!

These are the songs that brings back memory.. I still do love these so so badly bec it touched me so so dearly..Does it remind you of some memory?

Suicide?

After a long long hold back.. I am back.. hold back of what? Well.. I am pretty sure no one will be interested in my personal life.. since it is another boring story..

Suicide.. ya.. this somehow has become a "hot topic" in the newspapers as it kept on appearing as one of the headlines.. I can't help it but wonder.. why?? I am sure you feel lost.. sad.. like there is nothing else to live for.. and hence.. the next move will be.. to end your life.. once and for all.. To be frank, such thing does flash through my mind before.. but, I in the same time, I start to question myself.. if I were to go just like that.. one day, if someone were to think of me.. the only thing that they will recall is.. "this poor girl.. had a bad day.. thn die..".. and basically.. tat's all.. which are all negative.. I don't want my life ends just like tat.. If I were to die.. one day, I want ppl to recal me as.. " this gal is a great asset.. it is a huge lost to let go of her.. but it is not her call.. we surely miss her very very dearly.. " Idf I were to leave this world at my darkest moment, people will only remember you at the life prior to ur death right? Maybe I am not entirely correct.. But one thing I am certain of.. I do not have the courage to die just like tat.. do you know how much it takes to commit suicide? Well..you try taking a knife and poke it to your heart.. No.. I do not mean the "poke" button available in the Facebook.. I mean the realy poke where by you will see blood and everything.. can you do it? Maybe you can.. but I surely don't have the courage to do such thing..

I kept wondering.. when one decide to commit suicide.. do they think of their loved ones, by saying the loved ones I meant your parents.. your friends.. the one that you cared and cared of you? If you were to think of them, do you really have the courage to continue? Jumping down from 18 floors does not sound cool at all.. in fact, it is as scary as sitting on a celero shoot.. Before jumping down.. since you feel like you do not have any life anymore.. I believe money to you will mean nothing too right? Why don't you spent some of them.. go to genting.. and sit Celero shoot for .. let's say.. 5 times? this you can redo again and again.. and "experience" the feel of jumping down.. and you can treat it as suicide and "refresh" your mind all over again.. throw the feeling of suicide... and take a little bit more courage and continue your life.. wouldn't that sounds like a better plan?

Live your life FOR yourself.. and not for others.. this is what I usually heard.. somehow.. I am trying to do that as well.. we are bounded by feeling.. and there are times we are happy.. and there are down as well.. life is a cycle.. it is when we experienced the darkest moment that we will become stronger.. and when it goes by, we will know that it is not the end of world.. and we have went through the darkest that we will appreciate things that are around us..

I strongly believe that, there are choices in life.. and each choice taken.. will have an opportunity cost. However, this is life.. and life itself is a gamble.. at times, we might feel lost.. but it is not the end of the world.. it is just a consequences that we have to bare with every step taken. If there is no risks attached to it, I would say, it is not life at all.. some risks are worth taking.. some risks.. once taken.. cannot be undo.. After all, we are not superman, we will still get hurt.. bleed.. but trust me.. it is not the end of the world.. please don't take away life so easily..

This reminded me of a song, Superman can't fly by Jay Chow..I hope you will like it..

没关系--It is OK.. but is it??

Ya.. I am very used to saying this.. "I'm ok with it.. ".. but deep down.. am I really ok with it? or Am I just trying to convince myself to be ok with it?

I cam across with this song.. and somehow.. I can't stop listening to it.. At times, I do hope that it will not hurt much by saying "it is ok..".. although I might be able to convince others that I am ok with it.. but deep down inside.. I am just trying hard to pleased others.. trying to make them feel better.. without standing strong to my point.. I know well that they might not understand why I am "forcing" myself to take it that way.. but I know this move is for the better.. I am not sure if .. by chance.. anyone will get to know how much it takes to say "it is ok.. ".. and how long it took to be really okey with it.. but .. those who actually says it.. will know..

But I have to admit.. this is one great song.. and I do hope that you will enjoy the song as much as I enjoyed it..

你不知道的事..

There are lots of things remain unknown.. or I should say.. remain unspoken... or to be more exact.. it should be said as.. remain unwanted to be known.. Yes.. I know.. At times.. you wish to know something.. but somehow.. deep down inside.. you are afraid to know.. because you know.. in some degree.. you care too much to know that.. the story behind all these might hurt you deeply.. I know how you feel.. because without knowing it.. still.. you will feel unsecured.. but the consequences of your curiosity.. might cause you to know severe headache.. because you have to try solving or stay calm trying to find a way out of this mess.. This is where I am... It will not be possible to see all these from me.. because.. I wear a mask? but if you were to look into my eyes.. or to feel what I am feeling.. you will know..

Some were shocked to know that.. people at my age actually have my mind set.. But the thing is.. I have to.. not because I want to.. with all that I faced.. it will be impossible to not have such thinking.. is it a good thing? ok.. wel.. the truth is.. I guess I have to be glad that.. I think one step further? I asked when I don't understand even though it might sound ridiculous.. It can be kind of stress to be who I am.. but I guess.. I have to look strong.. to be able to stand up and face the world.. I cannot hide away.. because.. like some1 once told me..you can run.. but you cannot hide.. it will haunt you.. until you are brave enough to face it.. and overcome it.. I am not strong..in case you don't know.. but I am working hard to make myself strong enough to not to step back when I face obstacles.. I am working hard to be comfortable with what ever that is happening around me..

Below is a nice song.. a song that I would have.. entertain me when I am pressured with my surrounding.. at the very least.. it sang out the part that says.. "things that you do not know".. because.. if you think you do know me well.. do think again pls..

我還是我- I AM WHO I AM

I came across this video posted by Namewee today. I am pretty sure most of you will know who is he right? He is one artist which I can't help but to respect him so so much!! He is dare enough to speak up without fearing of anything.. How nice if I can be like him.. maybe I care way too much at times that I rather keep things to myself than to speak up.. Ya.. I do realised that at times.. I put others above me.. How can I not do so once I put myself in their shoes.. understanding how they are feeling.. I would rather keep my feeling for myself.. and remain silence.. this is who I am.. wearing a mask and facing the world.. tired ? Hell ya.. but wat else can I do? speak up? maybe.. one day.. but today might not be the day..

The thing is.. if you have yet to realised.. the only thing that remain unchanged around you is change itself.. don't get me? Well, think hard.. things are changing regardless whether you like it or not.. whether it is for the best or for the worst.. hence.. it is change itself that is remain unchanged, because it will continue to change right? If you have yet to realised.. I am still who I am.. I am still this gal that has tones of questions waiting to be answered.. I will continue to ask questions whether you like it or not.. whether it irritates you or not.. because I realised.. it is never right to assume stuff.. when I don't know.. I should ask.. even thought common sense can answer this question.. but I would rather hear it from you than to assume the answer from you.. I do know it can be irritating at times.. but you know wat.. It's all up to you to choose whether to answer or not.. but I choose to ask.. I might be emo at times..or rather.. most of the times.. but I will settle my own feeling.. this is who I am.. I am independent? tat.. it is not up to me to say this..

I really like this new song of his.. you can have a clearer view of his lyrics from here .

Below is his new song..

還是我 I AM WHO I AM by Namewee 黃明志好好野專輯主打

我是一隻小小鳥 - 丁噹

Sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time.. well.. start work d.. At times, it can be really bz.. and without realising.. time passed and it is time to go back.. I do not want to make blogging a a work.. because it will only make me feel stress.. not saying that what I am doing are stressful.. but it might sounds funny.. I actually enjoy what I am doing..

I am really glad that I found what I am looking for.. I read this somewhere that states,

"HAPPINESS IS NOT DETERMINED BY HOW MUCH YOU HAVE BUT IT IS DETERMINED BY HOW LITTLE YOU NEED"

this is really true.. you can never be happy if you can never be contended with what you have.. I once feel nothing seems to be good enough for me.. I started to blame a lot of things around.. and looking back at things.. I have things that others don't have. Although I might have been through a lot.. maybe more than those which is around my age experienced, I am who I am today because of what I have been through.. Hence, if I were to be given a chance to do things all over again, I guess, the only different I would be doing is that.. I would only desired to be a better person.. one fine day, when I look back at myself, I am glad of the steps taken.. that I am not standing at status quo.. I have move forward.. this is not too much to ask for right?

This is one nice song.. and I really do like it a lot..It translated what I am feeling at this moment., I hope you will like it too..

丁噹-我是一隻小小鳥

A song to remember..

I am pretty sure that most of you used to hear this song.. and in some part of your life.. you actually love this song.. you might not know how to sing or what it is all about.. but you certainly like this song.. Ok.. I shall be fair.. it might not apply to all.. but I am kind of sure that.. it apply to most.. I am part of the "most"..

I used to know how to sing.. and some part of my life.. I kind of forget about this song.. until recently.. I over heard this song while I was driving.. and next thing I know.. tears dripping down.. Yes.. to me, every song has its story.. this is one story that I can barely remember.. and so I thought.. I thought it is a history that will fade away with the pass of time.. I seriously thought so.. yet.. somehow.. I remembered the feeling.. something that suprised me..

This song used to be so popular that it took me sometime to actually find the original song sang by Utada.. with English lyrics.. I hope you all will like this song as much as I do..

First Love - Utada Hikaru

life..

I know it has been long since I last updated my blog.. I am sorry.. I guess the main reason is because I have been lazy.. well.. I have been trying hard to get use to new environment.. and new living style..

Why say so? ok.. let me give you a brief "glance through" as to what have been happening..I cooked.. ok.. I don't usually cook.. but for the first time in KL.. I actually cook.. and to my suprise..it is enjoyable..

However, I get to know a really bad news.. this post is dedicated to him.. We used to be close.. but due to some issues.. we somehow lost contact.. yet.. he is nice enough to remember my number.. and my birthday.. each year.. during my birthday.. i will get his sms.. wishing me.. except for that.. I don't really see him.. or even chat with him.. Lately, I got a news from my friends.. telling me that.. he had left us.. to somewhere far far away.. and I only get to know this about half a year later. ..Come to think of it.. I have yet to get any sms frm him tis year.. I thought maybe he is working in New Zealand and he is very busy.. lost track of time.. or maybe he is living happily now.. hence I don't really give much thought on it.. but it never cross my mind.. he is no longer around.. and whenever I hear this songs.. or see Sandy Lam.. it will remind me of him.. I have to be frank.. I can hardly recall his face.. because it has been awhile since I last see him.. but the thought that he is no longer around.. somehow.. makes me feel sad.. and in the same time remind me that I should always appreciate people around me.. and never take things for granted..

Hence I would like to take this opportunity to say..

Thanks you for being there for me when I needed someone..
this is not only dedicate for you.. but for everyone that read this..
THANK YOU!~

Below is an attached of the song.. enjoy!

AMei Vs Kelly Clarkson

After so long.. I dunno that these songs can still touched me so dearly.. I guess this is the power of songs.. when you are not at the best of your mood.. listening to all these songs.. without much doubt.. your tears will starts dripping down.. funny right? I guess maybe somehow.. I feel what she sang.. or maybe she sang out wat I felt? or maybe in some sense.. it is true to say that no human being is a robot that feel nothing.. I do feel tired, sad and emo..not always but I do have all these feelings.. however, I guess you will not find all these in me.. If I ever have the chance.. I will go for A mei's concert.. and I will bring my mom along..





ok.. I know some don't really know chinese and don really listen to all these songs.. a similar song will be

猜不透 ..Trying hard to figure out..

Ya.. I realised I love to listen to such song.. especially when I'm emo.. the funny thing is.. heh.. when you are down you might wanna find ways and means to avoid the deep feeling of your.. me on the other hand, wel.. I have to admit this. .when I'm sad.. I will tend to feel like wanna watch some funny movie.. thn maybe listen to this kinda songs.. why I do such torture? I dunno.. I somehow believe that.. when you are sad or even emo til a certain point that you can no longer feel anything.. you'll feel so numb that you feel nothing.. thn maybe you will start to recover.. I remembered I once had a bad experience.. and there was this CD that wil remind me of that.. to my surprised.. that I somehow on the same CD over and over for days, weeks and even months.. til one point of time.. I realised.. i'm finally over it.. it no longer have any effect on me.. funny way of dealing wit stuff.. ya.. i noe.. as compared with those that chose to avoid.. delete or even erase those memories.. or even people of their list that somehow gave them those memory.. I choose to keep them.. face them.. and deal with it..

ok ok.. I know I'm totally out of this topic.. today's topic.. is about tis song.. oh my.. I can't stand listen to song.. you know the feeling.. when you have such hope for some people.. but you are being treat .. with .. emmm.. " hot and cold"? You will be wondering.. wat you are to this someone.. wat have you did.. you wish to understand this someone so much.. but the more you know.. you will start to realise the least you know of this someone? I like tis song.. but not the MV to be frank..
To be frank, I actually hate silence treatment.. when I did something that makes you unhappy.. please do.., by all means, tell me straight to my face.. ok ok.. maybe not to my face.. but you really have to tell me.. don't keep it to yourself and bare with it.. I understand how it feel to bare things.. without telling it out loud.. I know how it feels to try your very best to deal with all the emotion silently.. wearing a mask to face everyone around.. hence, I won wan you to go through all these because of me.. If you don't understand me, do ask any questions .. I will try my best to answer..because I strongly believe that if you wan things to wrk out.. keeping it to yourself will not be the way.. I see friends, couples, and even husband & wife that assumed the other party will not understand things.. and hence keep things and feeling to themselves.. I have a question for you.. keeping things to yourself.. will make things better? are you 100% sure things won work out if you tell the truth? maybe things will not work out as plan.. but without telling it out.. thing will definitely not wrk out.. right? like wat my lecturer used to say.. ASSUME = ASS + U + ME ( Ass you and me ).. so.. never assume.. be sure of things.. I used to assume things.. I used to think that I should never tell my feeling out loud.. because this will show how weak I'm .. I should always uphold my imagine of being this strong, cold- blooded gal.. someone that no one can break through.. and see how timid, weak I'm.. but I realised.. maybe it's time for me to be myself.. maybe.. it is time for others to know how I feel? I wish to be understood.. in the same time, I wish to understand how others feel.. but the more I wish to do so.. the further apart I'm from the initial point.. I guess I've failed miserably..

Let's see.. wat's the last solution I have? Wish upon the star.. even though i Know well that.. it's jz another wish that will not come true.. .. is tis wat's called as life? I wonder..

丁噹 - 猜不透



P.S : I hope you will like this song!!

Had a bad day, anyone??

Well, ya.. the funny thing is.. I have been having bad days for some time.. you know the feeling .. you have planned for everything so well.. you are amazed with what you planned.. but things pop up.. and you have to accept the fact that plan well doesn't mean will work well.. and that planning might just to way too ideal.. I remembered once..

Few years back when I was still in my secondary.. one fren of mine.. one of my best fren.. and a super smart one I would say.. he once told me his plan for his life.. he actually planned to find a gal and get married at the age of.. 26.. so.. how far does his plan work? but if you still go on with your plan for the sake of following your plan.. that might just not be a life that compromise with your surrounding? There was this fren of mine.. she's a doctor- to -be.. and she's really a hardwrking gal.. and finally came bck to Malaysia during her break.. her fren was so happy ans ask her out to "yam Cha". Guessed wat happened after an hour? Her hand phone's alarm rang.. and next, she said" an hour d, I need to go bck to study d".. and so.. this is wat happened if you follow to strictly to your plan.. or do you have anything that you wish to share wit me?

Ok.. go bck to my story.. I was having real bad days for sometime.. but i believe the good is yet to come.. after all my assignments and test ended.. haha.. and so.. I would like to dedicate this nice song to everyone.. at least i know tis song lighten up my day!! and I hope it will do the same magic on you too!

Daniel Powter - Bad Day

刘力扬 - 我就是这样

This is one chinese song that I will strongly recommend to everyone.. y? because she is trying to tell u.. you are someone that's very much special.. unique! Why do we need to live for others? Trying hard to satisfy others while others stil unable to notice your existence? Well, at least.. tat's wat i've been trying to do all these while. trying hard to make others happy.. as for whether I'm happy or not.. does it even matter to others? I used to somehow ignore wat i think and put wat others wan as my priority.. but wel.. looked bck at who I was.. i will start to laugh..

I'm who I'm.. if you can't change me.. thn bare with me.. if you can't bare with me.. you are free to go.. I don't force anyone to stay by me.. I still have 24 hours a day.. 7 days per week.. this is one fact that doesn't change.. and one fact that we have to accept is.. we are who we are, 我就是这样! I hope you will like tis song as much as i do..

丁噹 - 我愛他 @ I love him

How to translate her name? it'll end up something like "Ting Dang" but it's a real sad song.. with the title "I love Him".

Ya.. I guess whn you love some1, you will choose to only see wat you wish to see.. listen to wat you wish to listen.. believe wat you wish to believe even whn all are against it.. Someone used to tell me, love is not a trade. but how can it not be a trade whn you are to put your faith, trust and maybe dream to one person in return for his/her faith, trust, care and maybe love too?




Lyrics :
他的镜框留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一(如果还有)遗憾 是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

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Sad song a? Well, bare with me.. i'll try to find some cute and happy song in my next post ya.. I hope you like tis song.. because i do like tis song..

Some though of mine:

This song somehow remind me of another song i once posted here as both also "betrayal" related.. The truth is, every steps we take.. there's a risk to take.. it's more of how much risk you can take.. but thn again.. without taking the risk, are you sure that forgoing the risk will make you risk-free? are you sure that forgoing the possible risk will make you remain in status quo??

Evan Yo 蔡旻佑 - 寂寞，好了 Vs 小乖乖

蔡旻佑 - 寂寞，好了
Evon Yo.. I would say he is a good singer.. let's see.. this is 2 songs frm his latest album (not to new.. he released it in Year 2009) but from wat i see.. tis is a sad song.. he touched my heart.. I mean this song makes me feel bit sad..

蔡旻佑 - 小乖乖
on the other hand.. his another song.. will makes you feel " super sweet..".. wel.. let the music do the talking??.. and maybe leave some comments??

David Tao (陶喆 - 天天 & 就是愛你)

I wonder.. how many of you guys actually like David Tao as much as I do.. well.. I don't really love him.. but he has an amazing voice.. what ever songs that he sang.. it will turn out just nice.. but sad to say.. I realised most of his old songs seems so much more attractive..

These are one of those songs that I will feel bad if I don't share with u guys..

David Tao - Close to you (陶喆 - 天天)

Have you ever fell so much in love that you wish to see this someone regardless of the weather.. wish to be with tis someone so badly that you will miss this someone even when he or she is just a min away from you side? He sangs all these out.. listen closely and feel what he tried to say..




陶喆-就是愛你

This is another nice song.. I mean.. if you wish to propose to someone.. tell her how u fell for her.. sing tis song to her.. I actually think all gal will melt lo.. u try and listen..and tell me wat u think ok ?!



I hope you will enjoy this nice songs.. and maybe can suggest some nice songs to me too ?!

When will it stops?

Lately, I have been bz working.. imagine.. I don't even have the time to sit down when there is always a chair available.. and I don't really earn anything even though the business is doing so well.. oh.. i forgot.. I got something.. slight flu.. and no.. i really don hope this is the well known sign of H1`N1..

Yet, this is not that caused me to feel sad.. looking bck on my Taylor's life.. although I have been mixing well(well as in I don really mixed and hardly even talk to ppl on issue other thn academic wise).. It is really sad to know and to see 2 frens fight over something i have no idea of.. no.. I don't really think they are fighting over something.. They are fighting over one's dignity which caused them to get even hurt.. and at tis point.. do they still have any turning bck in their friendship?.. I seriously have no idea.. but it is really sad and heart breaking to see all these..

No! I'm not bias in any side..at least no starting from this moment.. and I really hope I can still be friend of both side.. years later.. when both of u look bck at this.. will u ever regret for wat u have said and done? does it worth to break one's friendship because of all these? is it avoidable if there is better communication in conveying one's feeling truthfully to another party once u feel uncomfortable on another's action? so many questions.. yet.. so few answers..

From this, I learn one important lesson.. there is no winning in a fight.. both party will be the loser.. it is either u get hurt more or less.. so..how much is one's dignity's worth when both party hurt so much that it is hard to breath?

我想将这两首歌点给各位。。 但在还没结束前。。 有句我希望你们了解“退一步，海阔天空。。翩体鳞伤了。。 那又何苦呢?..

杨宗纬 - 让



李玖哲 - 想太多

Tears..

Tears.. when tis is mentioned.. most ppl will think of one cry because of sadness.. for my case.. yes.. I never cry because of happiness because.. and if one day.. I cried because of happiness.. my hope will be.. there will be people around me that I can share my happy tears with..

Let me tell u something : I wish to influence others with my smile.. and will keep my sadness to myself.. and will only let it go in the middle of the night.. when I'm all alone. this is me..so. How to define happiness? someone with a smile? yes and no.. in my case.. a smile will not define happy.. this mask of mine.. only those dear to me.. will sense something wrong.. other thn tat.. my mask will do well enough to cover my feelings..

At times, I' tired of this mask.. but without it.. I will feel insecure.. I've heard once that.. those that look strong.. there are actually much weaker thn those who look soft and weak.. maybe.. I'm really not as strong as I looked.. at times, I do admire those gal that can cry out loud.. because it seems that.. I do not have the privilege of doing so.. it seems like.. tears can only be seen in the middle of night when I can only feel no other thn myself..

The thing about tears is.. when you are still crying.. meaning.. you cared.. but if.. one day.. no more tears falling down ur cheek.. it means.. everything is over.. you have grow from sad to disappointed.. frm disappointment to.. give up??..

Found some songs related to tears.. this is one new version about tears..

溫嵐 - 眼淚知道



and this is one old song.. but really nice. try to listen to wat they think about tears?

范曉萱-眼淚(tears)