A word for you.. or maybe directed to myself?

What can I say? A lot of things have been happening around me.... I see people being happily together.. and breaking up.. some trying hard to stick together.. some..

Ya.. there is this say.. it is not hard to fall in love.. it is harder to find someone that love you back.. how true is this? that.. is subjective.. but one thing for sure.. no matter how much in love you are.. maybe when you are deeply in love.. you want to believe that, nothing will change.. but one day, when one expectation after another wee not met.. you will start to realise, the only thing that remain unchanged, is change itself.. as everything will change.. whether it is for the better or worst..

You disagree with my saying? Well, look around you.. currently studying? one day you will go into the working world.. and you, therefore, will change.. from the inside out.. or outside in.. you will change.. from the way you talk.. to the way you think.. One day, you will realised, the person that was so close to you.. seems to be so far apart.. ya.. i have a bunch of great fren.. most of them study different field.. and we started to drift further and further apart.. I still do "love" them deeply.. and I know well that if they need helps, i will try my best to help out.. but.. they have changed? or is it.I who started to change?

We cannot avoid change, therefore, we should go along with the change? This makes me wonder.. is there a duration or a definite distance that can make a long distance relationship work? I mean, from what I see, everything will eventually change right..will a long distance relationship eventually work out and somehow overcome all the changes or challenges that come by? Well,that is a question I do not think I am qualify to answer.. but one thing for sure, it is not an easy job to sustain it..

I believed we used to be puzzled with, what kinda ppl we will eventually ended up with.. when we were young.. we would hoping for the best.. one that does not really exist bec it is a "all in one package"... I used to be questioned with this too.. and I will end up saying practically nothing.. at this stage of life, I don aim for good looks , well, who am I to aim for model looking guy right? haha.. I believe one that I can trust, one that I will feel secured with.. that is the main priority.. If i cannot trust you.. how can I trust you with my feeling? How can I feel secured being beside you? I do not need fortune tellers telling me what will happen... I will create my own future.. Yes.. I am not certain what will happen along the road.. I mean, who will be certain of the future.. life itself is a risks.. but am I ready to take a road not taken? This I shall remain silence on.. however, I have come this far.. I intend to continue with the walk? Those that I have entrust with trust.. please do not let me down? I will need you to stand by me.. catch me when I fall.. dance with me when I am happy.. and sing along with me when I am stress out.. for, I will do the same for you too!!

These are the songs that brings back memory.. I still do love these so so badly bec it touched me so so dearly..Does it remind you of some memory?

Are you sure you are not loved?

Ya.. I know this is not really the season for where "love is in the air"..


but.. heh.. you know wat.. i actually have this feeling.. when you are so desperate looking for love.. somehow.. it will be "hiding" away from you.. and it will come to u.. when you least expect for it to come.. don't really go for what I said? ok.. you just wait and see.. one day.. you might actually agree. ok.. way off topic d.. I'm sure one of the day.. you will also think that.. there is no one in this world that love you.. care for u.. and no one in this world that understand you.. will listen to u.. ever think of such negative thoughts?

if you say "no".. i would say.. you are either the luckiest person .. or.. you are trying very very hard not to lie to me.. but to "persuade" yourself that you are this optimistic person..
I have to be frank that at times, i do have such thoughts.. but i also know it very well that.. I'm not alone in this world.. I'm loved, cared.. I might not be that lucky to someone to be with me whenever i needed someone.. but I know.. i'm never alone.. If you ever wonder why you are not loved.. think again.. they might not love you the way you desired for.. but that doesn't mean that they don't love you.. just like a couple.. when you complained that why he does not love you anymore.. are you sure he really doesn't love you? or he love you in his own way.. which might not be the way you desired for.. but he still try his very best to give you whatever he has.. he might have give you his world ,without you knowing it,.. but it is not the love you go for.. but that does not mean he doesn't love you.. right?

Ok.. i know very well that there is this "ruler" deep down in everyone's heart.. you will tend to "measure" things accordingly.. you will measure how well he suit you and your future ahead of you.. you will measure how nice he treat you as compared to others.. you will measure his actions compared to others.. I know all these.. because without knowing it.. I'm sure you will be doing so.. but .. have you ever wonder.. when you are "measuring".. others are measuring you as well? when you starts to compare.. you will see things "better"? you will realise what that you have might not be the "best" you can have? but.. can you define what is meant by the best? I dunno what is the best.. because I know well that.. there is never a specific definition for the best.. you will forever go for something that you think is the best.. but what you did not think of is.. what you have forgo.. whn you are measuring this someone.. others are measuring you too.. so.. there is no point of comparing this someone with others.. because there will never be "the best" .. and enough.. because we human are born to be greedy.. whatever that you think is the best now.. doesn't mean in days , months or even years to come will still be the best.. so.. how? you wanna go for someone that you are think will love you.. and forgo this someone that assumed to be "doesn't love you and deserve you"? the choice is yours.. but.. my advise will be.. maybe .. both of u should start to communicate.. tell things out.. never ever assume him to understand your thought.. because he will never know what you had in mind.. I had a fren that will know my mood ( whether I'm emo or not) just by reading the sms i sent.. but not everyone can do so.. because so far.. only he will "sense" something wrong.. but I can't assume all guys will know.. because .. lack of communication.. a relationship will not work..but with communication alone.. it might not work as well.. because it is only one factor that makes a relationship work.. be it a couple or a friendship.. right? at least i think so..
Anyway.. I'm glad that.. so far.. things are going well..I'm still the who I'm.. and we are still together.. in fact.. few days ago.. it was one special day for both of us.. and I got a bouquet of roses.. and a really nice card.. and i managed to take some nice photos of the gifts I received

Thanks a lot for this wonderful gifts dear.. this is one post I dedicate to you.. letting you know that you are loved? and to let you know that.. at times.. I might not care for u the way you desired for.. but that doesn't mean the other way round ok? This is one song that i really like it a lot.. i hope you like it too!!