A song to remember..

I am pretty sure that most of you used to hear this song.. and in some part of your life.. you actually love this song.. you might not know how to sing or what it is all about.. but you certainly like this song.. Ok.. I shall be fair.. it might not apply to all.. but I am kind of sure that.. it apply to most.. I am part of the "most"..

I used to know how to sing.. and some part of my life.. I kind of forget about this song.. until recently.. I over heard this song while I was driving.. and next thing I know.. tears dripping down.. Yes.. to me, every song has its story.. this is one story that I can barely remember.. and so I thought.. I thought it is a history that will fade away with the pass of time.. I seriously thought so.. yet.. somehow.. I remembered the feeling.. something that suprised me..

This song used to be so popular that it took me sometime to actually find the original song sang by Utada.. with English lyrics.. I hope you all will like this song as much as I do..

First Love - Utada Hikaru

life..

I know it has been long since I last updated my blog.. I am sorry.. I guess the main reason is because I have been lazy.. well.. I have been trying hard to get use to new environment.. and new living style..

Why say so? ok.. let me give you a brief "glance through" as to what have been happening..I cooked.. ok.. I don't usually cook.. but for the first time in KL.. I actually cook.. and to my suprise..it is enjoyable..

However, I get to know a really bad news.. this post is dedicated to him.. We used to be close.. but due to some issues.. we somehow lost contact.. yet.. he is nice enough to remember my number.. and my birthday.. each year.. during my birthday.. i will get his sms.. wishing me.. except for that.. I don't really see him.. or even chat with him.. Lately, I got a news from my friends.. telling me that.. he had left us.. to somewhere far far away.. and I only get to know this about half a year later. ..Come to think of it.. I have yet to get any sms frm him tis year.. I thought maybe he is working in New Zealand and he is very busy.. lost track of time.. or maybe he is living happily now.. hence I don't really give much thought on it.. but it never cross my mind.. he is no longer around.. and whenever I hear this songs.. or see Sandy Lam.. it will remind me of him.. I have to be frank.. I can hardly recall his face.. because it has been awhile since I last see him.. but the thought that he is no longer around.. somehow.. makes me feel sad.. and in the same time remind me that I should always appreciate people around me.. and never take things for granted..

Hence I would like to take this opportunity to say..

Thanks you for being there for me when I needed someone..
this is not only dedicate for you.. but for everyone that read this..
THANK YOU!~

Below is an attached of the song.. enjoy!

Interviews.. anyone?

Ya.. I am done with my degree.. and have been hunting for jobs.. since.. let me see.. April? and I am proud to say that.. I am done hunting for job!!

I am glad that I did not give up half way through when I have been rejected by others.. but it is a process I know I have to go through to know where I stand and to grow up.. I have been through interviews with commercial sectors.. with the big 4.. and even with the big MNC.. and even local companies.. and I have sum up those experiences in this posts.. with the hope that.. you all can gain something out of this..

First and for most.. there will be a test.. to test on your level of thinking ( mathematically, your maturity and how do you handle or act on certain situations)and of most of the case.. English plays an important role.. because you will need to deal with your superiors.. and customers.. and even to communicate with others.. hence.. most cases.. you will be asked to go through a written test. For companies such as PWC and IBM.. you need to go through the assessment in order for you to go for the interview.. hence.. do well in the assessment to gain the chance to impress your interviewers.. Companies such as Genting and KPMG.. well.. you will get the chance to go for the interview once after you have completed the assessment.

Ok.. let's assume you have gone through the assessment and get the chance to talk to the interviewers.. I realised that.. it is crucial for them to know that you are clear of what you want.. as they need to know that you are keen of the job.. and will be worth for them to "invest" the time, effort and $$ in you.. however, it is also important to show to them that you are confidence..I realised.. most of the interviews.. they don really ask technical questions.. most of them will ask you personal questions such as " how will you deal with situations like this and that.. how do you rank yourself when compared to others.. and stuff".. mostly.. you can find the interviews questions in the internet.. but my advise would be.. never say something that show them that you are way too good.. or over confident.. and in the same time, never say bad things about another company or about others.. this will only show how unprofessional of u.. all of these.. i think are crucial.. and essential..

I do hope I manage to help you all.. if there is any questions you would like to ask related to this.. please do feel free to ask.. I will try my very best to help out..

Birthday celebration..

I am pretty sure that most people will try to make a big fuss out of this day.. i mean.. come on.. this is the day you were born.. and the day you enter into this world.. with one thing on ur mind - you wish to make a different out of this world? ok.. maybe not such huge thing.. but deep down inside.. somehow.. you still wish for this right?

My birthday? ok.. since.. i can't remember when.. I stopped reminding others about this day.. and with the hope that.. somehow.. others will not remember.. because to me.. it is just another normal day.. nothing special about this day.. and maybe because of so.. since then.. somehow.. my family members somehow forgotten about this day.. Well, I don't really blame them.. they have a a lot things on their mind.. hence, this year.. only around dinner.. somehow my youngest sister remembered and reminded everyone.. there is no cake .. no candle.. no birthday song.. just a slice of cake from my best friend - Wen Min. I guess.. this is why I didn't get the chance to make a wish.. but if I were given the chance to make one.. I hope that they will know what I am going through.. I am not afraid of getting hurt.. but I wish to walk my way out of my life.. maybe someway along the line.. I will get hurt.. I will fall down.. but at least.. this is my walk.. and I will suffer my own consequences.. What that I see.. might not be what you saw.. and we might not see things eye to eye.. but.. I have my own thoughts.. my own mindset.. which.. maybe not many will understand.. but this is who I am..

Too bad.. I have missed out my chance to make such a wish this year.. haih.. but I don mind if anyone of you willing to "donate" a cake for me.. hahaha.. so.. any volunteers?

Way back into time..

Gosh.. if it is not because of my sister.. I guess I won't go back to my secondary school and somehow.. all the sweet memories flash back..

I remembered when I was a student.. I was also a prefect.. well respected one? well, I will not put it that way.. but the different part is.. I don't use the "power" given to me for personal reason.. I tried to listen to others.. and tried to find my way out.. I remembered when I was still a secondary student.. I used to think that it would be nice if I can by pass all the exams.. I like learning new things.. but well.. it is never fair to compare who is the best of the best solely based on exams performance.. because.. I was never on the sport light.. I was active .. was in the so called " best class in whole form".. but I was never the best.. well.. I guess when I was young.. I realised that my greatest enemy was none other than-- myself.. but.. maybe.. starting from now, I need to change my perception on things.. I still need to challenge myself.. but.. it should never stop there.. I was never a well-known student even when in my degree program.. because I choose not to be high profile.. Ya.. I have to admit.. I like to stay status quo.. remaining in my comfort zone and not willing to make the first step. All of these.. got to stop now!! I know very well that I can make it through if I am willing to make the first step and keep on trying..I might fail even after I tried my very best but I know very well that.. if I stop trying.. things will come to an end.. and all the hard work will not worth a single thing.. I have come this far.. it is just few more steps away from reaching my dream.. just a few more steps..

way back to reality..

I guess I have been dreaming all these while.. you know.. the type of typical country gal pondering and dreaming of something huge.. wanting to "save" the world.. but ultimately.. only wishes to save herself from the ugly side of the world.. hoping and praying that she can always remain in the wonders of the good side of the world? wel.. it is time to wake up and find myself back to the reality.. I know.. I am a gal that is highly insecure.. I can't help it but wonder tones of possibilities.. some might sound not logical.. but maybe in some sense.. it makes me feel better.. but.. I guess I can never run away from the truth.. ya.. I know Jon once told me.. the truth can be ugly.. and.. some truth are meant not to be reveal.. for the best of both parties.. I know.. but do you know that it is also true to say that if I can accept you.. I will accept the true you.. and not the one that I wishes you to be.. because you are who you are.. I rather you hurt me now than to find out some hidden lies ( or should I say some white lies ) one day in the future..

The reality is.. life is never fair.. when you started to treasure something so much so that you are not willing to let go.. maybe it is time for you to let it go.. for the good of both party.. I need to face the reality that.. regardless of how much have been given out or sacrifices.. I guess.. it will only be regarded as a foolish act one day.. if it is not being appreciated.. I know I did nothing wrong.. but I guess one day.. maybe another party will have the same thought too.. because things can be deceiving when it comes to wat have been seen.. heard.. felt.. as opposed to what is called as "the truth".. Of all skills I've learn throughout my whole degree.. reflection and justification are of the best use.. I know not many will back me up.. but don't you think that wat is the truth.. might not be that important.. as it is how you justify it as the "truth" that matters the most? Reflection.. is one skill that not many mastered. Only through reflection you will learn what have you done wrong.. and avoid history from repeating .. ..
Still.. I can't help it but wonder.. what have I done wrong.. or should I rephrase it to.. What more can I do to make it right?

The outside world ....外面的世界

I know I won't be able to update my blog as frequent as I used to be).. because.. I final exam is around the corner and in the same time, I need to attend interview (do wish me all the best!!).. However, I guess I still need to update some nice songs that I came across lately as .. heh.. how can I not share great songs right? but.. I have to say.. most of the songs I listen to are chinese songs ( to be more precise, mandarin songs).. those who don't really know chinese.. you know wat.. there's no harm listening to these songs.. just like I used to listen to Japanese songs without knowing what they sang.. but the rhythm somehow touched me too..

Well, Karen Mok.. she is very much famous with her long sexy legs.. but somehow..her style of conveying her songs.. is very much unique too.. the first time when you listen to her song.. you might not like it..but if you listen it with your heart.. all alone.. in the middle of the night.. or maybe when you are very much stress.. this is one song that will make you feel better..

I know in days ( oh ya.. I just realised it is DAYS instead of MONTHS).. my degree life will come to an end... and I will have to join the working world whether I like it or not.. The truth is.. it is a mixed feeling.. I am eager to work.. because I want to learn as much as I can..while I have the chance.. yet.. being way too comfortable at my own zone.. I am reluctant to step out of this zone .. where study life seems to have less things to worry about.. but.. this is life.. where this is a path that I need to go through.. because.. one fine day, maybe 5 years later.. when I looked back.. I want to be proud of myself for taking this very step to step out of my comfort zone to a path that is full of challenges.. and able to go through all of these with pride!

Wish me best of luck would you?!

In the mean time.. enjoy this nice song!!

莫 文蔚(Karen Mok)-外面的世界 ( The outside world)