I came across this email not very long ago.. one touching article and I decided to translate it to English.. just that..I don't have a perfect English.. so.. bare with me ok ?! This is a story about I'm sorry..
—— “对不起”的快乐 。
This boy and Gal known each other since young, the boy also date the gal out to the pond near the village to catch prawn..The boy will be able to catch all the prawn but the gal will go back home empty handed.. She will go back alone.. look sad.. with both eyes watery.. Before dinner..there will be a knock on her house’s door.. when she saw him.. she will tend to run.. and he will catch up with her.. tell her “I’m sorry, I’ve caught all your prawns..But now.. I put them in an aquarium for you ..” She smiled happily.. this is their process of childhood.. In a blink of eyes.. both of them grew up..
--- An innocent “ I’m sorry”
The boy will always disturb her.. caused her to feel like crying.. thn make her happy all over again.. even till both of them are grownup..
He will always release the air of her bicycle’s tyre thn hide at the corner far away.. look at her nervous expression.. wait for her call.. thn run to her and let her scold his act.. Yet, he still like her very much. He will silently carry her bike .. though she is scolding him.. he still feel happy.. thn tell her “I know is my bad.. I’m sorry..” She will thn go soft and tell him never to repeat this act again.. you can see happiness in both their eyes..
--A Happy “I’m sorry”
After graduation, both of them managed to get job, he is always busy with his work, at times he didn’t get a day off for a month. And she will get angry at him for not giving her his time. Finally, they had their first fight. She cried sadly, yet he doesn’t seems to be on the weak side and said “I’m doing all these because of my job!” This cold fight extended for sometime.. Finally, she can stand no more and went to find him. After this, both of them had a lot of fights because of small stuff.. Yet, she will always be the one to step one step back.
That year, during her birthday, he promised to give her a romantic birthday, she is waiting anxiously, putting all her best dress and makeup.. waiting for him..and this wait lasted until midnight.. when she woke up, her face covered with tears.. he wiped off her tears.. feeling heartbroken and said “ I’m sorry, marry me please?” and he handed her a ring..
--A promise to “I’m sorry”
After their marriage , his carer became stable follow by tones of meeting up with clients after office hours.. and she became a professional house wife. She will prepare all the dishes for him daily, clean the house and buy some prawn to put in the aquarium daily.. and he will wonder why she buy the prawn, she will only answer with a smile..
With the pass of time, he will always go back home with different perfume on his body.. Without waiting for her to question, he will explain that he is way too busy to meet up with different clients after office hour. She realised.. yet she remain silence. Since then, she doesn’t like to talk.. not as “happy go lucky” as she used to be, she preferred to stay at home most of the time, hug her pillow when she watch Korean movies.. and cried while she watch it.. late at night, she will cry out loud. At the later days, when he comes home, there is only one perfume on his body, she never asked, yet he will still tell her “ I’m sorry, today had to meet up with clients after office hour.”
--“I’m sorry”, Lies begin..
He started not going back home, or always had out station.. With his high post, there are tones of people around him, and he will smile proudly when they congratulate him. She, on the other hand, hardly steps out of the house, she will only go to supermarket and buy all the necessities, and locked herself in the house. This lasted for some time. She used to call him and chat, and now, she will be alone, with no one beside her. Every time when she called and ask him what time he will come back, he will answer reluctantly “I’m sorry, I’m way too busy”. She will put down the phone sadly. After this incident, she never asked him what time he will be back.
--“I’m sorry” is just another way not to answer questions asked.
She began to make up.. thinking that he's not home because he is tired of seeing the "old" her.. She decided not to make herself look like an aunt.. She should fights for her happiness.. without knowing wat is meant by gave up!
That day she went to his office.. the first time she steps to his office.. she felt bit weird to enter the place that he always claimed to be busy wrking at. She looked closely at every corner of the office.. To her, the place really does look nice. Finally, she saw his office, she opened his door silently.. and she was shocked.. the guy in his eyes.. is not his husband.. and is not the guy tat always spoil her bike.. definitely not the guy that put prawns in the small aquarium.. but is a guy making love to another gal.. She was on the table.. making "noise" and the guy is like a hungry beast..
After a long while.. he realized the gal was there.. he panicked.. picked up his attire but she left.. he was chasing her..That particular night is a raining night. She did not bother his call.. trying her very best to run as fast and as far as possible.. He cried out loud " I'm sorry.. I still love you... I'm sorry.. I really love you alone.. ".. yet, she doesn't seems to hear that..
---A "I'm sorry" that hurts ..
He tried to look for her.. but she seems to gone by the wind..He is lost.. no mood to wrk or even find other gals.. he can't seems to think of other places that she can go to.. because she had no other frens.. he is her only frens.. he stayed by his phone 24/7.. feared that she might called.. and he waited for more than half a year..
One day, there's a delivery for him- a box. He opened it anxiously and saw a lot of sample prawns resting on the leaves, hiding among the grass.. and there lies a letter for him.
" In the end, I can't find any more courage to see you once again.. I guess I'm way too coward.. or maybe I don't feel like seeing you any more.. I guess the sign of "Beware of your words" now will make no different to you anymore.. I'm doing great here. Learning a life without you around.. I learn how to earn money on my own without waiting for your return every single night.. cooking all those dishes for you and waited until it turn cold and still .. your shadow are no where to be seen.. my hand phone are no longer useful to me.. because I don't need it anymore.. as I don't have to on it 24/7.. waiting for your calls.. and tortured myself with all the radiations. I've learn how to love myself.. how to appreciate the wonderful life I supposed to be living in.. I guess.. I've forgot how to love you.. because you've made me hurt way to deep..
Our divorce agreement is on the table.. below the aquarium.. after you've signed it.. mail it to me according to the address will do.. I'm sorry.. I guess I'm really way too tired.. "
According to the address, he went to search for the gal.. he was certain that he will meet her and get her forgiveness, telling her that he can't live without her.. To his surprised, it was her dad that answered the door.. and she was standing behind her dad(which is actually her photo).
Her dad told him, after she wrote the letter to him, she committed suicide- jumped down from building and there were blood all over it..
--A "sorry" can also means the end of everything..
Moral of the story: Everyone will have their chance to meet the one that will really appreciate us. Please appreciate wat this one do.. Though a sorry seems very magical.. yet, not all "I'm sorry" can be followed by "It's ok...".. Never let your beloved one regret loving you.. Never say "I'm sorry" when you don't meant it at all.. Never said I'm sorry for nothing..