Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Below is a photo of the guy who is somewhat the lucky one tat had the chance to stand on the stage and sing.. ya .. i know he deserved it.. and he sings well.. he is the winner from facebook.. Pls do forgive me.. as I can't recall name.. Following is another cool guy... heh.. although he looks young and small.. but let me tell you.. he has a loud voice.. and don't judge a book by its cover.. he represent Malaysia and win k!! He is Shawn Lee..
Finally.. I can see Hannah Tan in person..
Still blur and can't see her ?? Try to have a look on the photo below..
Japanese Ambassador and Hannah Tan on the stage.. and you will not believe what happened next.. he sang.. and just any japanese song.. he sang Malay songs.. Yes!! MALAY SONGSS. 2 songs to be exact.. and he sang wel..
Followings are some artists that Hannah Tan managed to invite..All the artists are Malaysian.. and let me tell you.. they are all talented!! See the guy in pink?? He is Malaysia's Vannessa Mae!!..
If you wish to hear the best combination of musics.. and I mean music alone.. without anyone sing.. I would say.... ( ..let the photo do the talking.. )
and some other invited guess... that sing well..
This is the only photo I managed to get .. I know it is bit blur.. but Jojo moves way too fast.. and this is the only clear photo I managed to get hold on.. so..
Talk about magic.. I'm actually super impressed with the following magic.. how on earth he managed to make those moves with a fork?? Maybe someone can teach me??
Thanks alot to all the participating artists that make this event a memorable one in 2009!!
Before I managed to get a nice photo of a Xmas tree when I was about to enter the lift to the assigned hall for the event.. and so.. I would like to take the opportunity to wish everyone .....
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Like any other Xmas.. this time.. there won't be anything special for me.. I thought things won't go this far.. but it had.. All that i want, is the truth.. is to understand what had happened.. but it's wat i failed to get.. and you can continue to blame everything on me.. because.. to you.. it's wat that i deserved... but you have not asked why this happened.. you have not asked how can you do to make it up or at least.. wat caused all these to happened?.. all that you cared.. is wat you can do.. to make you feel better.ya.. i know.. all these while.. i've tried to avoid all the questions that might make u feel bad.. because i noe.. in the end, you will turn around and somehow..made me feel sad.. so.. my bad for not trying hard enough to ask all these "sensitive" issues.. and u never seems to wanna let me noe..
If I could compared, I'm having the same feeling as last year..wat's that's more is.. i need to be strong to keep my promise regarding of wat.. wat's that's less is.. nothing is less.. but i know i should lessen the care i have.. to minimize the pain i'm experiencing..
I don't mind to be alone on festive season.. bec it's wat that i've experience all these while.. so.. wat's the big deal? what that I've realised is.. my tears worth nothing.. all the pain that i've been through to be in tis stage.. doesn't count.. you will see no tears.. because I need my mask to be who I used to be.. you can hide to lick your wound.. but i still have to face the world that expect me to do so.. i can't possibly shut myself down..because there are ppl waiting for me.. I still need to face the future.. regardless of the past. But, i never know that.. you have let the past effect us tis much.. it's good that i've finaly see all these.. and i know that if it's not handled wel.. it will be the beginning of the end.. i never wish to see this comin.. but since you have bring tis up.. let's see how far can i go.. xams.. is all about togetherness.. happiness.. and forgiving.. but the spirits are way too far from me.. but i will make it through.. hopefully..
Sunday, December 6, 2009
As what is defined by Google ego is "an inflated feeling of pride in your superiority to others " . Ya.. I know.. ego is never a bad thing.. but let me give you some example as to how far your ego can bring you ok? To the extreme, ego can bring down a relationship. Imagine you are in a relationship where both party refuse to admit they are the wrong party due to "ego issue".. and how far this cold war will bring you? I mean, emmm.. if you try to discuss things with her in a nice manner after both have calmed down.. you being the first to step one step back.. does this shows that you worth nothing? Wat do you lose by doing so? .. ok.. let's put the question another way around.. how much will you gain by doing so? at the very least.. both understands Wat went wrong.. and there are chances that things might just work right? so how much you gain? emmm.. let me give you an insight.. if you are willing to put down your ego and make the first move.. guys.. you might just get a girl's heart because.. she will know by then that.. she worth more thn your ego- you really do care for her.
Lately, there has been some argument between 2 party around me.. and ultimately. .i think it's more of personal ego issue rather than the issue surfaced. Well, for those who actually see this post.. I won't know who you are.. but I'm sure that.. it's more of ego issue right? because we had experience such problem before.. where.. you remembered last year.. we also had somewhat a unproductive "lessons" which is , as compared to this current condition, worse.. right? but we did nothing about it.. and there was not a big fuss.. ya.. i know i have no right to say anything.. but I actually think that.. different people have different perspective of things.. I know we used to be spoon feed with information and so.. if it required us to get our own info.. i guess this change.. we will somehow resist it right? What i actually think is.. one will get angry because one care or concern of something .. regardless of what it is.. ultimately... the goal is the same - when we performed, we will look good.. and they will look good too right? we strive for the same goal.. just at a different path.. and when somehow expectations are not met, it will not seems balance.. and to balance it up, someone has to make the first move.. and that's another reason why the "discussion" session came about.. we need to sound out Wat we need .. face to face.. and listen to Wat's required from us.. things have to go in 2 ways to make it work..
I'm somehow glad that there are this discussion part and by doing so.. because by doing so.. she had put down her ego and by doing so.. she showed that she still care for us.. because she still wish to make a diff.. and Wat we can do is.. to find a balance point where we can meet her expectation.. and in the same time, she's trying to meet our expectation too? To many, she might not be the best.. and i think she knows it too.. because the definition of "the best" is way too subjective.. but i can see that she's trying her best.. and that's Wat counts right?
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Imagine yourself having tones of work to do.. with the dateline of assignment getting nearer.. and you are still half way through everything.. stress is the only word to be described.. yet, you know you can never shut yourself from the world just to complete everything.. but to some extend.. I choose to go on with my life.. and face all the stress and feeling on my own.. and tat's whn the problems arises.. I'm stress.. yes.. where can i release my stress on? I can't simply scold ppl right? yet i have to tried to settle problems arises around me.. how far can i proceed from there? I have no idea.. remain status quo is the only option I can't go for.. tat's for sure.. but adding on to my stress.. tat's not i'm looking for too.. to some extend, I wish to shut myself from the world.. just me and myself.. maybe by thn i can ignore everything else other thn myself.. maybe i just need some rest.. maybe i'm way too tired to face things.. there are too many maybe.. but will any of the maybe.. help me out here?
Sunday, November 29, 2009
For those that know me well.. will noe that I'm currently studying in Taylor University College.. no.. I'm not as rich as you imagine.. the only reason i'm studying there is because I'm under scholarship.. and all thanks to that i get the chance to meet all these bunch of wonderful frens!! However, according to Newton's law , every action has its reaction (surprisingly I still remember physics!! --Mr. Wee, I did not disappoint you le! hahaha). Every opportunity gain will come with something that you have to forgo. -- I need to be away from my home, Melaka. Ya i should also be thankful that I'm not really that far away from home. I know.. but as far as you know.. i wishes to go bck home at least once a week. But, with the work loads.. how can i afford to go back that often!
I used to wish to stay away from home when i was young.. with the hope that.. maybe to some extend.. my parents will not look at every steps I'm taking.. and scold me if it's againsts their will. However, currently.. i'm the one telling them each steps I'm taking.. with the hope that.. they will tell me their point of view of each and every steps i'm about to take. Funny right?? Maybe to some extend, I wish to feel at home even whn I'm far away from home.
When I've been away from home for sometime, at times, I'll dream that I'm at home.. sleeping on my bed.. and when I'm awake and realized it's jz another dream of mine, deep down in my heart.. there's some disappointment .. When I'm way too long away from home.. i'll tend to find foods that are slightly similar to mom's cook. Nothing better than my mom's cook. She knows what i like to eat and my favourate soup.
When I'm away from home for more thn a week.. I'll starts to miss my doggies.. the feeling of hugging my Snowy.. how happy my doggies will be whn they saw i'm bck from KL. How Wolly will manja and want me to hug him and pet him before i can touch on other dogs.. How Poppy will run all the way to give me his "hand hand".. and the super fierce Ranger will actually look at me with his cute eyes.. with the hope that I'll manja him too..
When i'm bck at home.. my dad will purposely come bck early .. although he won't really start to chat wit me.. but he'll sit by the tv.. while I'm facing my laptop.. it's like he's actually accompanying me silently.. waiting me to go to sleep thn only he'll go to sleep..
Home.. there's no place like home.. a shelter that we can have a good rest .. a place where I would say.. heaven.. there's actually a thin line between heaven and hell.. Nothing is always better than something.. whn everything is in peace.. no arguement.. It is heaven because nothing happens.. but whn there's something.. it could be a slight arguement.. that did not ends well.. if you leave it as it's .. it will be ok eventually.. but while it's recovering.. that period.. i will feel it's as though hell.. ..regardless hell or heaven.. it's my home.. a place I can ever ignore.. How long have I been away from my home? I would say.. I'm never away from it.. physically.. maybe ya.. but it stays in my heart.. always.. So, How long have you been away from a place called HOME ??
Monday, November 23, 2009
As far as I know those that have been to Europe country .. places like .. Melbourne would have know Krispy Kreme as it has been these for sometime.. but as far as Malaysia is concern, it has only been in Malaysia for.. less than a year.. the last time I've checked, it's about half a years old in Malaysia. Ya.. it has been kinda new in Malaysia... and so.. it's reasonable for you not to know such delicious doughnut!!
I was lucky enough to have the chance to meet up with the senior operating manager. Let me tell you.. he is really a nice guy.. no. .he didn't pay me to say anything.. unless you would say a cup of orange juice and a New York Cheese cake is viewed as a sign of bribery.. but come on.. I don't really think it's material enough to actually affect my judgment..
Let me get back ot the point.. the donuts.. yes.. it's not really that cheap.. but let's talk after you have actually tasted it.. it is worth the money!! Well, I've tasted J.Co donuts few months back.. and I can't really recall what it impressed me of (I don't really have an impressive memory you see).. but Krispy Kreme's donuts.. emmm.. once you have a taste of it.. you will not actually feel like eating those normal RM1 donuts d..
Let the pictures do the talking ok?!
Well, I know for some people this original doughnut might be slightly sweet.. yes.. I know.. but this is a really special doughnut.. they used melted sugar as the topping.. and once you have a bit on it.. it's crunchy from the outside and soft from the inside. Try to have a bite of it if you really have yet to taste it.. I actually wonder how they came up with this idea.. it will cost you about rm19.90 if you buy a dozen.. but I was lucky enough to have it free.. because there is someone who went through all the trouble .. being the first 100 to line up at the Sunway Krispy Kreme branch on the first day they operate and got the voucher of 1 month free original doughnut!!
These are the few with special toppings on it.. if you really think the original is way too sweet.. unacceptably sweet.. I would suggest you to try this few topping.. especially the one in purple, pink and red.. these few.. according to Mr. Peter ( the Senior Operating Manager) , it had been improved lately to make it less sweet.. and from the feedback i got from others.. it's less sweet and really nice.. so you gals and guys should try it out!!
Well.. see the one that I've circled in red? It's one of my favorite doughnut the New York Cheese!.. how should I describe it..emmm.. I can't find a word to describe it.. it's not too sweet.. and not tasteless.. there are cream in the doughnut.. what else?? emmm.. try to have a taste of it.. and you will know what i meant.. haha..
I know that currently they are having 3 branches in Malaysia. If you wish to get freshly baked doughnuts, the Times Square should be your choice because it's their factory outlet. The other 2 are Mid Valley and Sunway outlets. I heard that they will be opening another outlet not long from now.. and as what I've heard from Mr. Peter, he said that around Xmas session, they will have some cute pattern of doughnuts especially for Xmas.. I'm curious how it'll look like..let's see if I'm lucky enough get photos of them and share it with you guys!!
Monday, November 16, 2009
Risk management is what a hot topic to be discuss lately.. but for your info.. as long as you are living.. you are dealing with risk. Risk of falling in love with the wrong person.. Risk of falling out of love..but through tis video.. what i can say is.. the gal is really lucky to have 2 wonderful men that will stand by her regardless of wat..
Try listen and see.. if ever you can do tis for the one you love..
Friday, November 6, 2009
Back to the topic.. I have not been having the brightest days of my life lately. I know well that rainy day is actually a very nice day to sleep but imagine this : I have to wait at the bus stop for the bus to stop and "pick me up". Rainy day is not a good day. It will takes ages for the bus to come.. and worst still..after I've waited for so so long.. I was delighted to see a bus.. with an umbrella and heavy rain, I walked ( or i should say run) to the bus and whn i was few steps away from the bus, it drove off.. Yes .. I meant it whn i said IT DROVE OFF !! leaving me under the rain.. and i was partially wet because it was a heavy rain! What a day right? .. and I thought my bad days are coming to an end... and so I thought..
Today early in the morning as early as 3++AM.. my uncle (which I have never seen before) knocked on my door.. For those that don't know me, i'm currently living with my aunt in Subang as my college is few hours away frm Melaka. .. and for the past 2 years, I never see my uncle (my aunt's husband) as he is hardly in town, and whn he is in town, i'm not in KL... let's go back to the topic. He knocked my door.. and I woke up in shock.. thinking that it might be an emergency that my cousins knocked my door.. I opened the door, and to my suprised ,I was a guy wearing nothing but a pant.. and ask me " Do you know me? Lokk closely.. and see if you know me??" and i was struggling to open my eyes.. I was trying my best to be awake.. and was like "wat the hack ? who the hell are you?".. my cousin answered " He is aunt's husband... "
My goodness!! You woke me up just to ask me do I know you?? NO I DON'T KNOW YOU~~and i hope I won't have to get to know you!! So don't ever wake me up for nothing!! I need my sleep!! hahaa.. but I was awake enoguh to know these words can never coem out from my mouth.. else.. I'll be kicked out of the house for good.. I just node my head.. and closed (locked) my door and went bck to sleep...
come to think of that.. it seems dangerous to open my door to a total stranger.. and he was drunk at that time.. but he was liek very happy to wake me up just to see me and let me see who the hell he is. But come on.. you don't have a brain?? it was 3++ in the morning.. and I was having my sleep! After he woke me up.. I can't really sleep d.. until about 5++.. all thanks to him..
So.. I do have some day right?? wat a day.. let's just hope that all these will come to an end.. soon..
Monday, October 19, 2009
" No matter how many times you fall down.. you just gonna keep trying.. because it matters how you gonna finish..
Are you gonna finish strong? .. you will find the strength to get back up !
Thursday, October 15, 2009
I was so stress lately.. with all the workload.. and assignments that is on hand..yes.. at that moment when i suggest to apply for a broadband, I know my family will reject because it don seems to be a "need" item.. but I really do need it for my work.. and so.. I insisted to go for one.. I know I'm not from a wealthy family.. that every cents that I spends.. I actually have to think twice before I spend it.. but that doesn't mean they are not reasonable..
Today, I give my mom a call a tell her I've applied.. and the decision of me not going back home town.. and this prove me right.. parents, they are reasonable.. they just have to listen to your explanation of things.. if it makes sense to them.. they'll understand. at least my parents will.. and so.. I need to thank my family members.. for being understanding.. and supporting me..
And to all my friends.. I also wish to thank you for being such an understanding friend.. I know at times I'm not really in good mood.. or I might have offend you in some way.. and if i did.. I'm sorry.. I never intend to do so.. but I'm still glad to have you as my fren..
For the one that stay by me through the ups and downs of my life.. Thanks alot for accepting who I'm.. I know you have seen the worst of me.. yet.. I'm really thankful that you still stay by me.. Thanks alot !!
Friday, October 2, 2009
I got this email not long ago.. and I find tis very much true.. but the fact is.. most of the time.. the guys are more of the A type.. maybe because most of the B type guys are married? .. or guys.. i got things the wrong way?
Two types of Hubby, two types of life..
A: She :" Dear, help me get a cup of water pls?"
He :" Let's play a game to decide .. who loses take k?"
She:" Forget about it.. I'll take it on my own.. "
B: They are watching Korean series. She stood up and he questions her : Where are you going to ?" " I need a cup of water" she answered.
He : " Sit down.. I'll get it for u !"
How many of we gal are lucky to get the B guy? Actually, the only things gal desired for from a guy is to care for her. You can have nothing.. as long as u cared for her.. she will have the courage to hand the rest of her life to u..
A : He just finished wrk and he give her a call " Dear, I will be having dinner wit my friends tonight."
She :" You promised to accompany me shopping.. remembered?"
He :" We can always do so some other day !"
and in the end.. she cried silently.. wondering why every time things end in tis way..
B: He finished wrk and give her a call " Darling, someone gave me a ticket to watch my favorite team on action..awhile more I'll watch my Spain football team d k?!"
She:" a? oh.. ok lo thn.. "
He : " Why are you sound unhappy?"
She:" You've forgotten.. Last week my fren and her bf agreed to treat us dinner today.. "
He:" oh ya! Totally forget about tis.. Sorry. In this case, I'll give the ticket away. I'll accompany u k?!
She:" Nevermind, we can always have it someother day.. or you can just watch it first.. we'll wait for u.. "
He:" No.. I've promise you and I'll go by my promise. In fact, leave you alone wit them .. you'll feel like their sportlight, you'll feel uncomfortable"
She: " It's ok and... "
He didn't wait for her reply and insisted for her to get ready as he will be bck soon to pick her up.
The fact is, women.. actually they are not stupid or ignorance. Just that, she need to get a guy tat are matured.
A: He :" I'll be going out for dinner"
She :" What time will you be bck ?"
He :" For sure will be bck by 9"
Nine thirty , She :" Why you are still not bck at home?"
He:" By ten, I'll be bck !"
11pm, 12am, 1am, 2pm..
.. and she stoped calling.. because she knows the fact that.. a guy that doesn't keep his promise.. all his " for sure and comfirmed.." are uncretain.
B: He :" I'll be out for dinner, by 9.30 I'll be bck.. thn we go for movie k?"
She: " You sure everything will end so soon?"
He:" Don't worry, I'll keep my promise!"
Almost 9pm and he called :" Get ready k ? I'll depart now and get u for the movie !
Trust, is build on every small incidents..
A: During her "inconvinience period" , she's not feeling very well, yet, she bre the pain to wash clothes.. tidy up the house.. and he is facing the pc.. playing on9 games..
When she's done with all the wrk.. resting on the bed.. with a long sign..
He turn and look at her for one moment :" Dear.. thx alot!".. and cont wit his game.
B: During her "inconvinience period",she's suffering.. yet she woke up.. preparing to wash clothes..
He stops her insisting her to rest.. as he will do for her.
She:" U know how to do all these? "
He :" I don't have a clue.. but I can learn.. Next time when you are not feeling well of course I need to do all these !"
Woman need not just sweet talks.. with the sweet talks, she might just give you a warm smile. but with a real care.. she will be grateful her whole life. and she will repay you by giving you a warm house.
A: She bring a pack of nuts for him.. and she went off to wash clothes.. When she's bck, he finished most of the nuts..
B: She bring a pack of nuts for him.. and she went off to tidy up the room.. Whn she is bck, she saw a plate of "ready to be eaten" nuts in front of the pc.
Woman are very emotional. She will brag to others how understanding you are as though she brag about diamonds.. It is just like a trade, if you are willing to give in some time and care, you will get priceless wealth.
A: He :" You are the best.."
She asked: "Tell me how good am i "
He :" Well educated, Pretty.. and you are nice to me.. "
B: He:" You are the best gal I've ever seen".
She :" Tell me how good am I"
He :" You are nice to everyone , very kind.. appreciate everything in your life.. The one with the a kind heart will make people around you feel warm.. and you are kindest of all that I've ever met. Those that hurt you will for sure be sentenced to hell !"
When you are nice to someone, this someone will think that you are a nice person.
When someone understand how good you are, he (she) will want to be nice to you.
So far, how many of you being categorized as type A .. let me guess.. most of you are A instead of B? ..
Monday, September 28, 2009
There is no 100% from this someone, only 50% from 2 person..
2） 付出真心才会得到真心却也可能伤得彻底 ; 保持距离就能保护自己却也注定永远寂寞
In order to get one's heart, you have to give yours away..but there's a risk of getting your heart back.. in a broken form ; Distance yourself will protect you.. but you'll be destined to be lonely..
Those who are willing to stay with you after a fight are those who really do love you..
At times, it is not that this someone does not care for you.. but it is you that weight him (her) too "heavily".
Coldness, at times, are not impersonate but a tool to avoid broken heart..
If there's a 1000 steps separated us, if you are willing to make the first step, I will make the rest 999 steps..
Those who are happy when you are down are your enemy; those who are delighted when you are happy are your friends ; Those who are sad when you are down.. are those that you should keep in your heart..
Even LIE hide between BELIEVE
True friends are not those who discuss about everything but those who do not weird even when they are together and speak nothing..
Friends are those who know you very very well.. still able to like you for who you are..
and I would like to add few more..
11) The only unchangeable is change itself.. whether it is for the best or the worst.. we would still have to accept the fact that we are changing.. and so do our environment.. our feelings.. and thoughts..
12) When you feel like the world is "shutting down" on you.. high chances are.. you are shutting down yourself towards the world..
So.. agree with me ? or anything other things to add on to?
Thursday, September 17, 2009
When I was young.. I hope to grow old.. to understand what to meant to live in this world.. though I'm still in the process of figuring it out.. I learn that it is hard to find happy ending.. and that.. the meaning of hurt.. does not mean bleeding.. and that bring hurt physically.. sometimes.. might be less "hurt" .. How can it be so difficult to know something that seems so easy to be understood?
I used to think that my grandma is a real good person.. though she don't really know who I'm.. or wat I'm currently studying (yet she knows all other grand children condition and even their name).. what else can I said beside.. maybe.. I'm not so impressive for ppl to remember me.. or at least. for her to know me by my name.. but.. it is not a big deal.. it taught me something..one day.. I will be someone.. so that.. I will not be anybody any more..
I missed the days where I was worry- free where I can do wat i like all day long.. there were the days I can cycle all day long with my brother and explore the "taman" around us.. find out how beautiful our nature is.. and how much fun we had with people around us.. look at where we are now.. will you actually feel safe cycle around with no companion ? I mean.. if you are a boy.. maybe you will not worry so much.. but if you are a girl.. you will be afraid of kidnappers.. rapers.. where are the good old days?
I missed my frens where we organised events together.. and the hard work we have been through just to make things look perfect on the day of the event.. I missed having the yam cha session.. and look around us now.. we are far apart.. with all different courses we pursuing.. I guess we will be further apart on our journey of life.. but I hope the good old days will forever remain in our heart.. and the good old memories had made us a better person..
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Anyway, 2 days ago, there was this one nice customer of mine.. I was serving her.. and she seems to be really nice..and it is just like a normal customer with naughty kid(named as Kak A).. and so, I don't really give a damn.. I mean.. I was so darn tired.. and was hoping for a chance to sit down for just 5 min.. few min after tis customer with this naughty kid went away.. I heard this Malay customer (Kak B) shouting " Where is my trolley?!".. and I was like.. SHIT!.. here we go again..
THis is not the first time this happened.. there was once a customer came in my shop and when he went out.. he found his trolley LOST.. and he bought about 300++ .. but my boss was smart enough to get it back for him.. because she saw one old lady took it after she confirmed that it was hers.. and we thought this won happened again.. but we were wrong!!
Out of our expectation.. this time it was a kid! and we managed to trace the whole process through our CCTV!.. and so.. our "supervisor" managed to trace tis nice customer , Kak A.. and to our suprise.. she told us that no such thing happened.. because she owned 2 ikan bakar shops.. and so.. there is no need for her to steal ppl's stuffs.. and so on.. we can do nothing ..
Today, my boss tried to give Kak A a call again.. and somehow.. the customer came back today.. claiming that she managed to asked her son.. and her about 10 years old kid was the one moving the Kak B's trolley to another place.. which caused the Kak B to lost her stuff.. and Kak A is nice enough to come back and willing to pay back her lost..
This story tells me something: I should never assume all mankind (mostly Malays are thieves.. which I did.. I thought the kid was asked by his parents to do so..my bad.. and I'm truly sorry for thinking so.. to be honest.. I thought the Kak A will never enter this shop ever again and Kak B will never get back her money or ever find out that is our customers that stole her stuff...) To all Malays that read my post.. I'm truly sorry for thinking so.. though some Malays are having some bad habits.. but it is my bad for assuming all..
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
—— “对不起”的快乐 。
This boy and Gal known each other since young, the boy also date the gal out to the pond near the village to catch prawn..The boy will be able to catch all the prawn but the gal will go back home empty handed.. She will go back alone.. look sad.. with both eyes watery.. Before dinner..there will be a knock on her house’s door.. when she saw him.. she will tend to run.. and he will catch up with her.. tell her “I’m sorry, I’ve caught all your prawns..But now.. I put them in an aquarium for you ..” She smiled happily.. this is their process of childhood.. In a blink of eyes.. both of them grew up..
--- An innocent “ I’m sorry”
The boy will always disturb her.. caused her to feel like crying.. thn make her happy all over again.. even till both of them are grownup..
He will always release the air of her bicycle’s tyre thn hide at the corner far away.. look at her nervous expression.. wait for her call.. thn run to her and let her scold his act.. Yet, he still like her very much. He will silently carry her bike .. though she is scolding him.. he still feel happy.. thn tell her “I know is my bad.. I’m sorry..” She will thn go soft and tell him never to repeat this act again.. you can see happiness in both their eyes..
--A Happy “I’m sorry”
After graduation, both of them managed to get job, he is always busy with his work, at times he didn’t get a day off for a month. And she will get angry at him for not giving her his time. Finally, they had their first fight. She cried sadly, yet he doesn’t seems to be on the weak side and said “I’m doing all these because of my job!” This cold fight extended for sometime.. Finally, she can stand no more and went to find him. After this, both of them had a lot of fights because of small stuff.. Yet, she will always be the one to step one step back.
That year, during her birthday, he promised to give her a romantic birthday, she is waiting anxiously, putting all her best dress and makeup.. waiting for him..and this wait lasted until midnight.. when she woke up, her face covered with tears.. he wiped off her tears.. feeling heartbroken and said “ I’m sorry, marry me please?” and he handed her a ring..
--A promise to “I’m sorry”
After their marriage , his carer became stable follow by tones of meeting up with clients after office hours.. and she became a professional house wife. She will prepare all the dishes for him daily, clean the house and buy some prawn to put in the aquarium daily.. and he will wonder why she buy the prawn, she will only answer with a smile..
With the pass of time, he will always go back home with different perfume on his body.. Without waiting for her to question, he will explain that he is way too busy to meet up with different clients after office hour. She realised.. yet she remain silence. Since then, she doesn’t like to talk.. not as “happy go lucky” as she used to be, she preferred to stay at home most of the time, hug her pillow when she watch Korean movies.. and cried while she watch it.. late at night, she will cry out loud. At the later days, when he comes home, there is only one perfume on his body, she never asked, yet he will still tell her “ I’m sorry, today had to meet up with clients after office hour.”
--“I’m sorry”, Lies begin..
He started not going back home, or always had out station.. With his high post, there are tones of people around him, and he will smile proudly when they congratulate him. She, on the other hand, hardly steps out of the house, she will only go to supermarket and buy all the necessities, and locked herself in the house. This lasted for some time. She used to call him and chat, and now, she will be alone, with no one beside her. Every time when she called and ask him what time he will come back, he will answer reluctantly “I’m sorry, I’m way too busy”. She will put down the phone sadly. After this incident, she never asked him what time he will be back.
--“I’m sorry” is just another way not to answer questions asked.
She began to make up.. thinking that he's not home because he is tired of seeing the "old" her.. She decided not to make herself look like an aunt.. She should fights for her happiness.. without knowing wat is meant by gave up!
That day she went to his office.. the first time she steps to his office.. she felt bit weird to enter the place that he always claimed to be busy wrking at. She looked closely at every corner of the office.. To her, the place really does look nice. Finally, she saw his office, she opened his door silently.. and she was shocked.. the guy in his eyes.. is not his husband.. and is not the guy tat always spoil her bike.. definitely not the guy that put prawns in the small aquarium.. but is a guy making love to another gal.. She was on the table.. making "noise" and the guy is like a hungry beast..
After a long while.. he realized the gal was there.. he panicked.. picked up his attire but she left.. he was chasing her..That particular night is a raining night. She did not bother his call.. trying her very best to run as fast and as far as possible.. He cried out loud " I'm sorry.. I still love you... I'm sorry.. I really love you alone.. ".. yet, she doesn't seems to hear that..
---A "I'm sorry" that hurts ..
He tried to look for her.. but she seems to gone by the wind..He is lost.. no mood to wrk or even find other gals.. he can't seems to think of other places that she can go to.. because she had no other frens.. he is her only frens.. he stayed by his phone 24/7.. feared that she might called.. and he waited for more than half a year..
One day, there's a delivery for him- a box. He opened it anxiously and saw a lot of sample prawns resting on the leaves, hiding among the grass.. and there lies a letter for him.
" In the end, I can't find any more courage to see you once again.. I guess I'm way too coward.. or maybe I don't feel like seeing you any more.. I guess the sign of "Beware of your words" now will make no different to you anymore.. I'm doing great here. Learning a life without you around.. I learn how to earn money on my own without waiting for your return every single night.. cooking all those dishes for you and waited until it turn cold and still .. your shadow are no where to be seen.. my hand phone are no longer useful to me.. because I don't need it anymore.. as I don't have to on it 24/7.. waiting for your calls.. and tortured myself with all the radiations. I've learn how to love myself.. how to appreciate the wonderful life I supposed to be living in.. I guess.. I've forgot how to love you.. because you've made me hurt way to deep..
Our divorce agreement is on the table.. below the aquarium.. after you've signed it.. mail it to me according to the address will do.. I'm sorry.. I guess I'm really way too tired.. "
According to the address, he went to search for the gal.. he was certain that he will meet her and get her forgiveness, telling her that he can't live without her.. To his surprised, it was her dad that answered the door.. and she was standing behind her dad(which is actually her photo).
Her dad told him, after she wrote the letter to him, she committed suicide- jumped down from building and there were blood all over it..
--A "sorry" can also means the end of everything..
Moral of the story: Everyone will have their chance to meet the one that will really appreciate us. Please appreciate wat this one do.. Though a sorry seems very magical.. yet, not all "I'm sorry" can be followed by "It's ok...".. Never let your beloved one regret loving you.. Never say "I'm sorry" when you don't meant it at all.. Never said I'm sorry for nothing..
Monday, August 31, 2009
Try to imagine this la.. you are driving on the road.. and you see red light on the traffic light.. by law, you will stop and wait for your turn.. as you wait, you will hear a LOUD sign of non stop trouble (those with a modified motor cycle voice, obviously is a sign of trouble right?).. wat will you do? I was there.. and I actually can't believe tis is their sign of patriotic.. to me, it is more like a sign of stupidity? I mean.. come on.. the traffic light is red.. and everyone is waiting for their turn.. I know you are in a crowd of at least 10 or more motor cycle.. WAIT FOR YOUR TURN k! they actually think that with the flag on their small motor, they are hell of a great.. they can ignore all those ppl on the road and by making those loud motor noise, they can cont to ride.. and let me tell you.. I was on a T junction (4 traffic lights at 4 diff. directions) and they pass by the 4 places while I was waiting for the traffic light to turn green..
If this is a sign of patriotic.. wat is the use of police again? If tis is a sign of patriotic.. wat will those tourists think of Malaysia's educations? If this is so call a safe and fair place for we people to live in.. I wonder why the police let them continue to "operate" and we still get our "saman" when we park by a place for just a few min without a parking tickets? Oh.. talk about tickets.. I actually wonder.. I mean.. ya.. I know Malays are having their puasa.. but.. how come they don really get saman when they park even by the road side to go for those stalls or their night markets and causes all those jam on the roads near by.. and yet we still get saman on small matters?? I wonder why.. With our theme of the year.. One Malaysia : Rakyat diutamakan, pencapaian didahulukan..very much well said.. WELL SAID..
Friday, August 21, 2009
I got a sad news few days ago.. One of my ex- teacher's husband(who is also my teacher) passed away.. He used to be an active sport teacher in my school. a cheerful and wonderful teacher.. and now he is gone.. Sad but truth.. Whether he is here for a reason, a season or a lifetime..you will always be remembered..
To all of you.. this is one nice msg that I would like to share with you.. I hope you will like it.. _______________________________________________________________________
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need
you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with
guidance and support,
To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a god send and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has
come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done...
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other
relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life,
whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
These are one of those songs that I will feel bad if I don't share with u guys..
David Tao - Close to you (陶喆 - 天天)
Have you ever fell so much in love that you wish to see this someone regardless of the weather.. wish to be with tis someone so badly that you will miss this someone even when he or she is just a min away from you side? He sangs all these out.. listen closely and feel what he tried to say..
This is another nice song.. I mean.. if you wish to propose to someone.. tell her how u fell for her.. sing tis song to her.. I actually think all gal will melt lo.. u try and listen..and tell me wat u think ok ?!
I hope you will enjoy this nice songs.. and maybe can suggest some nice songs to me too ?!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
I'm sure tones of you will be questioning my statements.. or even start to curse me.. but come on.. H1N1 is a hot topic to be discussed.. and I'm actually working in a place where I heard tones of rumours from "outsiders" saying that Tesco had been closed down for few days as its workers are down with H1N1.. but the truth is.. I had been working really hard lately to serve customers daily.. though I actually hope Tesco is "closed down" for couple of days.. but it is still very much "healthy" and still operating like normal days.. so.. tell me.. H1N1 is the deadly one or the rumours? .. As compared.. rumors is so much more deadly as compared to deceases right? so.. if schools can be closed down and students should be quarantined at home.. thn.. can we "closed down" a more deadly "creatures" that have created H1N1 and also those deadly rumours? It is.. indeed impossible to do so right?
The bare truth is.. everything happened with a reason.. this H1N1.. is actually a normal sickness we experienced.. a normal fever, sore throat,flu.. dizziness.. yet.. it evolved and turn into something deadly enough to kill.. I wonder.. does it shows that.. we human have turn weaker by days and those virus becomes stronger by days or does it shows that it the process of creating a "better living place for human", we human have been too ignorant and created a better environment for the virus to spread?
If you look close enough.. we are reason for all these.. try to look back into those time where our parents were at our age.. they can go out even without any shoes.. running on the road without worrying kidnappers..they do not have as much worry as we are.. they don't have to worry about those crazy rapers..back at those days.. though they are not well educated.. not techno savvy.. they don't even have as much supplementary(vitamins) as we take daily.. yet, they don't have to worry as much as we do now adays right? so.. what actually went wrong ? Are we really the reason for all these that happened around us? You tell me..
Oh.. before I forget.. I actually heard one scary stuff from someone not along ago.. she told me that those calender makers.. they usually will make those yearly calenders before hand.. and they tried to produce calender of year 2013 but somehow .. they can't print it out.. not just one calender maker experienced this.. so.. what does tis show? some technical problems? or is it a sign? I duno.. and I'm not in any rights to say anything.. .
So.. back to this topic.. If you asked me.. which is the most deadly creatures.. deadly enough to kill? I will say without doubt.. we human are the scariest creature.. because we created all these because we are the one who started rumours right? ? are we in time to fix all these? Are we in time to be awaken and realised all these? you tell me...
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Today I'm free enough to watch Astro Star World and watch this show.. and let me tell you.. after watching this show.. I'm super impressed with what those kids learn even at the age of 10! They have to know from US history to World history.. How old is the minimum age to be US senator? and president? Let's be frank.. I don even noe how old it is to be the senator of Malaysia until I studied Pengajian Am (form 6) and a 10 years old kid is expected to know these facts.. how can i not solute them ? I mean I learn all these facts and more about Malaysia when I was like.. 18 years old.. and they have to know all these at about 10..
This is one of the first that actually ARE SMARTER THN A 5TH GRADER!and is a SHE!! .. let's enjoy and see the wonder of getting the 1 million.. and the question asked.. I know well that I can't get this far.. at least not at this point of time.. if ever one day u guys managed to get this 1 million.. let me noe ok !! I will PERSONALLY thank you!!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
With the haze and the increased number of H1N1.. I actually feel unwell today.. and there goes my day.. my perfect day can only be a dream...this sore throat is killing me.. and somehow feel bit headache.. signs of H1N1? part of it.. yes.. but.. I seriously hope I'm no where near to the "quarantine concept" yet.. I can't survive bored day.. wat more bored days.. haha..
Let's hope I will get better soon.. my perfect day.. seems so far away now.. and my healthy body.. when will you come bck? I will have to make sure you will be back soon.. my perfect day.. wait for me ok ?!.. you can run.. but you can't hide.. I will hunt you down.. hahaha.. sound so dramatic.. but..now.. blogging is my only way of fun for today.. so.. bare with me for today ok ?!
Monday, August 10, 2009
「 Hold it up, and keep talking to me. 」
才聽見師父跟我說：「Now you can put it down.」。
There is no need to worry about problems that can be solved,
Problems that can’t be solved, worrying will do no good.
We should be glad when we are “problem- free” yet still be happy when we are troubled…
When tired, just let go of your problems
I’ve meet someone interesting not long ago especially when he asked me to hold on to the ketchup source while talking to him.
We were having normal conversations and listening to his explanations about karma and everything.. There was nothing special until I mentioned to him my personal troubled.. He insisted me to hold up high to the 3 bottles of ketchup source that he just bought while talking to him. Obviously, I can my left hand getting tired with the pass of time. I can’t stop wondering why he asked me to hold on to the 3 bottles of ketchup sauce while talking to him! I putted down the ketchup sauce when my left hand got too tired! But he continue to insist me and said “Hold it up, and keep talking to me.” Why can’t I put such heavy stuff down while talking to him? Won’t it be much more relax talking with him that way? This is what I kept thinking.. After about 15min, when my left hand can no longer support it, I finally heard he said “now you can put it down” He smiles while looking at my face that has thousand questions.
“You do not like to carry heavy stuff while talking to me right? Yet, why do you like to carry you problems while living your life? When your hand is tired, letting it go will made u feel much more relief, y can’t you do the same to your problems? As compared, problems are like ketchup sauce.. It is up to you to hold it on right?”
Interesting experienced right? We can easily let go of something we can see, touch and feel yet it is hard to let go of something that we cannot see with our bare eyes..
If you continue to be stubborn, you will have thousands of burdens to carry on your back,
Learn to let go, you will learn to live freely.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Man should always appreciate gal that used to stand by him when he is at his twenties as he is at his down side of his life.
No money, no land, no house, no car, no career… unable to be independent yet don’t wish to rely on others, struggling and searching and wondering where is hid place.
Girl at her twenties .. is at the best time of her life, shining and sparkling…
Man should always appreciate and be thankful for the gal that stand by him at his twenties as the gal at her twenties is at the best time of her life and guy at twenties is at the lowest time of his life.
Most guys at his twenties will not appreciate wat they have but it is wat the gal needed most – to be appreciated, loved and cared.
Man at that stage will be useless and so will keep on blaming himself, yet gal at that stage will try her best to build up hi confidence.
Man as his twenties do not know how to love yet needed love and gal at her twenties need to be loved, cared yet have to cared and be understanding.
Gal at her twenties is at the best time of her life. At this moment, she will be very kind-hearted, matured yet “kiddy”.
A man at his twenties that meet a gal of a similar age, he has to appreciate her because she used the best time of her life to accompany the worst time of his life!
If ur gal is sticky or make a big fuss out of a small matter, guys please don’t get tired of her and leave her alone as they have reasons to do so. We do not have reasons to feel tired or angry, we have to be very very understanding and protect this angel. When you guys reached your thirties, it is the best time of ur life, and please do not leave or give up on ur “used to be” angel.
When guys are at their twenties, they do not know how to be thankful, how to appreciate what they have. When they are at their thirties, they are very much stable and have their own career. They will start to give up this gal who used to accompanied him yet used up the best time of her life to accompanied him.
Someone used to say; actually guys are very loyal because from twenties to eighties, they will like pretty gals at their twenties. This is a joke and in the same time, it is very much true.
Others said gals nowadays are very realistic and do not see love in their eyes. They will tend to get married at their young age to someone rich and will have someone to accompany them for the rest of their life.
Yet, they do not know that, at times, guys are like onions. If you wish to see the heart of an onion, you have to peal of the layer one by one.
In the process, you will continue crying.. just to realized the very cruel fact that, onion do not have a heart.