我是一隻小小鳥 - 丁噹

Sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time.. well.. start work d.. At times, it can be really bz.. and without realising.. time passed and it is time to go back.. I do not want to make blogging a a work.. because it will only make me feel stress.. not saying that what I am doing are stressful.. but it might sounds funny.. I actually enjoy what I am doing..

I am really glad that I found what I am looking for.. I read this somewhere that states,

"HAPPINESS IS NOT DETERMINED BY HOW MUCH YOU HAVE BUT IT IS DETERMINED BY HOW LITTLE YOU NEED"

this is really true.. you can never be happy if you can never be contended with what you have.. I once feel nothing seems to be good enough for me.. I started to blame a lot of things around.. and looking back at things.. I have things that others don't have. Although I might have been through a lot.. maybe more than those which is around my age experienced, I am who I am today because of what I have been through.. Hence, if I were to be given a chance to do things all over again, I guess, the only different I would be doing is that.. I would only desired to be a better person.. one fine day, when I look back at myself, I am glad of the steps taken.. that I am not standing at status quo.. I have move forward.. this is not too much to ask for right?

This is one nice song.. and I really do like it a lot..It translated what I am feeling at this moment., I hope you will like it too..

丁噹-我是一隻小小鳥

Have you ever wonder..

Time to think.. and it will be good.. if you can think really hard.. and wonder.. why time flies so fast.. and did you really appreciate those that stayed by you or staying by your side when you really do need them?

Yes, I know well that.. most people do take things for granted.. and some of them. .will regret at that point of time.. and promise to appreciate.. but as time passed by.. their promises started to fade away all over again..

One used to tell me.. "prioritize your life! you know wat is important to you.. and try not to look back at he choices you made.. ".. Well said.. but the thing is.. if you never look back, you will never know what you did wrong.. and history will repeat itself all over again.. and this is what we are trying to avoid right? However, at this point of your life, the thing that you placed first.. might not be that important as time passed by. .and you might regret.. hence.. not to look back? wel.. I would say.. it depends.. you are who you are today.. and we are human.. which is main to do learn from mistake.. the most importantly.. we need to ADMIT that we did WRONGLY and LEARN from MISTAKE. . both admitting and learning must come hand in hand..

I had a chat wit one of my closest friend while I was in Form 6 the other day.. and it strikes me.. I have lost contact wit her for.. almost 4 year (and i can get a bachelor degree with that period).. We used to discuss everything under the sun.. and i do mean everything.. but now.. I don't even know how she is doing.. and have been doing all these while.. how sad.. but I am glad that.. this is one place that connects both of us together.. at the very least.. she knows how i am doing.. After all, this is one place where i can be myself.. without pleasing anyone.. while I am blogging.. my priority is none other than myself.. but in the real world.. I don't live by myself.. I have people around me to pleased. I need to make sure most people are happy.. even though it will mean that I am unhappy, stress or sad.. this is me.. and it can be really tiring to wear this mask going around..

I know not many still do read my blog.. but it is ok.. because one thing remains.. I still do feel good to update my blog. .and feel relief to be myself here.. I do not know what the future hold for me.. Am I meant to do big things? but at the very least, I am meant to build my own world.. a world which belong to myself.. and for now.. this is my world.. a world that belong to none other than.. myself..

A song to remember..

I am pretty sure that most of you used to hear this song.. and in some part of your life.. you actually love this song.. you might not know how to sing or what it is all about.. but you certainly like this song.. Ok.. I shall be fair.. it might not apply to all.. but I am kind of sure that.. it apply to most.. I am part of the "most"..

I used to know how to sing.. and some part of my life.. I kind of forget about this song.. until recently.. I over heard this song while I was driving.. and next thing I know.. tears dripping down.. Yes.. to me, every song has its story.. this is one story that I can barely remember.. and so I thought.. I thought it is a history that will fade away with the pass of time.. I seriously thought so.. yet.. somehow.. I remembered the feeling.. something that suprised me..

This song used to be so popular that it took me sometime to actually find the original song sang by Utada.. with English lyrics.. I hope you all will like this song as much as I do..

First Love - Utada Hikaru

life..

I know it has been long since I last updated my blog.. I am sorry.. I guess the main reason is because I have been lazy.. well.. I have been trying hard to get use to new environment.. and new living style..

Why say so? ok.. let me give you a brief "glance through" as to what have been happening..I cooked.. ok.. I don't usually cook.. but for the first time in KL.. I actually cook.. and to my suprise..it is enjoyable..

However, I get to know a really bad news.. this post is dedicated to him.. We used to be close.. but due to some issues.. we somehow lost contact.. yet.. he is nice enough to remember my number.. and my birthday.. each year.. during my birthday.. i will get his sms.. wishing me.. except for that.. I don't really see him.. or even chat with him.. Lately, I got a news from my friends.. telling me that.. he had left us.. to somewhere far far away.. and I only get to know this about half a year later. ..Come to think of it.. I have yet to get any sms frm him tis year.. I thought maybe he is working in New Zealand and he is very busy.. lost track of time.. or maybe he is living happily now.. hence I don't really give much thought on it.. but it never cross my mind.. he is no longer around.. and whenever I hear this songs.. or see Sandy Lam.. it will remind me of him.. I have to be frank.. I can hardly recall his face.. because it has been awhile since I last see him.. but the thought that he is no longer around.. somehow.. makes me feel sad.. and in the same time remind me that I should always appreciate people around me.. and never take things for granted..

Hence I would like to take this opportunity to say..

Thanks you for being there for me when I needed someone..
this is not only dedicate for you.. but for everyone that read this..
THANK YOU!~

Below is an attached of the song.. enjoy!

Interviews.. anyone?

Ya.. I am done with my degree.. and have been hunting for jobs.. since.. let me see.. April? and I am proud to say that.. I am done hunting for job!!

I am glad that I did not give up half way through when I have been rejected by others.. but it is a process I know I have to go through to know where I stand and to grow up.. I have been through interviews with commercial sectors.. with the big 4.. and even with the big MNC.. and even local companies.. and I have sum up those experiences in this posts.. with the hope that.. you all can gain something out of this..

First and for most.. there will be a test.. to test on your level of thinking ( mathematically, your maturity and how do you handle or act on certain situations)and of most of the case.. English plays an important role.. because you will need to deal with your superiors.. and customers.. and even to communicate with others.. hence.. most cases.. you will be asked to go through a written test. For companies such as PWC and IBM.. you need to go through the assessment in order for you to go for the interview.. hence.. do well in the assessment to gain the chance to impress your interviewers.. Companies such as Genting and KPMG.. well.. you will get the chance to go for the interview once after you have completed the assessment.

Ok.. let's assume you have gone through the assessment and get the chance to talk to the interviewers.. I realised that.. it is crucial for them to know that you are clear of what you want.. as they need to know that you are keen of the job.. and will be worth for them to "invest" the time, effort and $$ in you.. however, it is also important to show to them that you are confidence..I realised.. most of the interviews.. they don really ask technical questions.. most of them will ask you personal questions such as " how will you deal with situations like this and that.. how do you rank yourself when compared to others.. and stuff".. mostly.. you can find the interviews questions in the internet.. but my advise would be.. never say something that show them that you are way too good.. or over confident.. and in the same time, never say bad things about another company or about others.. this will only show how unprofessional of u.. all of these.. i think are crucial.. and essential..

I do hope I manage to help you all.. if there is any questions you would like to ask related to this.. please do feel free to ask.. I will try my very best to help out..

Birthday celebration..

I am pretty sure that most people will try to make a big fuss out of this day.. i mean.. come on.. this is the day you were born.. and the day you enter into this world.. with one thing on ur mind - you wish to make a different out of this world? ok.. maybe not such huge thing.. but deep down inside.. somehow.. you still wish for this right?

My birthday? ok.. since.. i can't remember when.. I stopped reminding others about this day.. and with the hope that.. somehow.. others will not remember.. because to me.. it is just another normal day.. nothing special about this day.. and maybe because of so.. since then.. somehow.. my family members somehow forgotten about this day.. Well, I don't really blame them.. they have a a lot things on their mind.. hence, this year.. only around dinner.. somehow my youngest sister remembered and reminded everyone.. there is no cake .. no candle.. no birthday song.. just a slice of cake from my best friend - Wen Min. I guess.. this is why I didn't get the chance to make a wish.. but if I were given the chance to make one.. I hope that they will know what I am going through.. I am not afraid of getting hurt.. but I wish to walk my way out of my life.. maybe someway along the line.. I will get hurt.. I will fall down.. but at least.. this is my walk.. and I will suffer my own consequences.. What that I see.. might not be what you saw.. and we might not see things eye to eye.. but.. I have my own thoughts.. my own mindset.. which.. maybe not many will understand.. but this is who I am..

Too bad.. I have missed out my chance to make such a wish this year.. haih.. but I don mind if anyone of you willing to "donate" a cake for me.. hahaha.. so.. any volunteers?

Way back into time..

Gosh.. if it is not because of my sister.. I guess I won't go back to my secondary school and somehow.. all the sweet memories flash back..

I remembered when I was a student.. I was also a prefect.. well respected one? well, I will not put it that way.. but the different part is.. I don't use the "power" given to me for personal reason.. I tried to listen to others.. and tried to find my way out.. I remembered when I was still a secondary student.. I used to think that it would be nice if I can by pass all the exams.. I like learning new things.. but well.. it is never fair to compare who is the best of the best solely based on exams performance.. because.. I was never on the sport light.. I was active .. was in the so called " best class in whole form".. but I was never the best.. well.. I guess when I was young.. I realised that my greatest enemy was none other than-- myself.. but.. maybe.. starting from now, I need to change my perception on things.. I still need to challenge myself.. but.. it should never stop there.. I was never a well-known student even when in my degree program.. because I choose not to be high profile.. Ya.. I have to admit.. I like to stay status quo.. remaining in my comfort zone and not willing to make the first step. All of these.. got to stop now!! I know very well that I can make it through if I am willing to make the first step and keep on trying..I might fail even after I tried my very best but I know very well that.. if I stop trying.. things will come to an end.. and all the hard work will not worth a single thing.. I have come this far.. it is just few more steps away from reaching my dream.. just a few more steps..